C.15: I fell for him.

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April's POV
As we walked out of Wing's apartment I gazed at my hands. Hating myself. I hate how vulnerable I feel. But mostly hating on the world.

Snapping me out of my thoughts Killua placed his hand on my arm. I stopped walking feeling a shiver down my spine. I looked at him staring at his eyes. His eyes shone next to the moonlight. I dug for an answer but found none. The light in his eyes seized, bringing me to reality.

"We should head back... We don't have much time." He said whilst walking away.

I stood there not caring to take another step. Am I really a monster? Why can't I be a normal person? Someone who goes to school, falls in love, gets heartbroken and hangs out with friends. Everything in my world relies on surviving. On not getting killed. Just to gain something in return, like power, money, fame, glory or a selfish need. I looked in front of me, watching as Gon's and Killua's figures started fading. I took a step breathing in.

"But I guess it's to late to realize this now I can't back out... I'm already a monster and there's nothing that can change that." I hurried my pace trying to catch up with them.
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We passed through Hisoka's Nen barrier which revealed the 200th floor. When we were about sign up these three idiots appeared. I regret what I did. I was not on my best mood and they were fucking annoying so I threatened them. If it wasn't for Killua I would have seriously killed them. But... Killua held me by my waist hugging me. I blushed at the thought.

I need to practice my Nen and find a perfect Hatsu. But I have something in mind. Thinking about Nen I remembered what Wing told me about my Nen.

Flashback
I placed both of my hands around the glass staring intently at it. I watch as impurities start appearing in the water.

"Huh Congratulations April! You are a Conjurer." Wing said.

"Conjurer?" I asked not sure what I could 'conjure'.

"You can conjure any object you like. After you master the conjuration of that object, you can conjure and dispel it. Anyone can see what you conjure, unless you can hide it with In. The other is for you to find out." Wing explained.

"What object can I conjure?" I asked still confused.

"Like I said, that is for you to find out." He said one last time before continuing with the others.

Right about when we were leaving Wing stopped me.

"April could you come here for a second?" I nodded walking towards him.

"I notice you have..." He gulped. "You have great powers but you must control yourself because your Nen could have awoken a monster. An unstoppable monster." Wing sounded... Scared.

"April Acciai aren't you? Acciai is an untamable monster. You must be careful." He said turning around. I could just blink.

Am I really a monster that scary...?

End of flashback

I jumped from my bed scared by the sudden knocks on the door. Well I might as well work on my Nen later.

I opened the door slowly revealing Killua. I faked a smile putting up a façade.

"Hey can I come in?" He said smiling back at me. I nodded moving aside.

We sat on my bed talking about normal things. Then he looked straight at my eyes. I could not read what was written on them. It was so foreign to me.

"April..." He said but I didn't response I kept my gaze at his eyes.

"April I can see you are putting up a façade, trying to hide something. You see I know when you are lying to me and when you are sad. But know you are hiding something. Just know that I'm here an I can help you. No. I want to help you." You could see he was talking sincerely.

But I can't tell him. I won't... It will only hurt him and the others. It's better this way. Right now I'm being selfish and you could say that I'm doing the wrong thing but I'm not. I know what will happen if I tell him and I know what will happen if I don't. The outcomes are different but one of them is for the best. If I told him I would be thinking of just the present and not the future. And the future it holds is worse than the present of the other.

"Nothing. I'm fine." I said smiling. My eyes stung, wanting tears to escape. Then I felt two arm hold me. His warmness making me melt. Tears falling down my cheeks. His shirt wet with my tears. I felt him touch my hair.

Why are you doing this to me Killua Zoldyck?

You might not understand what I'm doing but I've been waiting for this since I was born and Killua Zoldyck got in the way making me fall for him.
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Author's Note
Hey guys! Here's a new chapter! We are almost reaching the end of this story but not quite still. I still have something planned. *Giggles* Okay so hope you guys enjoyed! Please vote and comment I appreciate it. Until next update!

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