Untamable Beast (Hunter x Hunter Killua Fanfiction)

Epilogue

What even is life? When you lose the moon to your night? When everything that made you happy is gone. Knowing you could never feel anything due that it will never be reciprocated. Missing every bit of that person. Every peculiar movement and action. The laugh which was like symphonies to my ears.

Maybe you'll forget me but I won't. If remembering was a crime I would be already locked up because that's all that I seem to do. I don't think I'll ever forget you.

Nobody can ever replace you, no matter how hard they try. You leaving me made me weak and sick. My heart is sick. No longer wanting to beat, longing to stop beating.

Is this the end of the story? Everything we had vaporizing into thin air. The saddest days seem to be my everydays. I keep trying to sleep but it just seems to make me worse. Going back to the day when we parted. From which dreams I try to wake up praying they are nightmares but when I wake up, I realize that my life is a nightmare.

I once heard of love, I thought all those stories were exaggerated and stupid, but you don't know how it feels until you go through it. All those thumps on your chest and those stupid thoughts. But then you start feeling as if you can't live without them. They are already a part of you. Wishing to live a whole life together. Then hearing those words... Those words dripping with sadness as their eyes became swollen from all the tears. Damn those tears!

Your love is so strong you want to confess but the right words never seem to come out. Hating yourself for being foolish and letting the most important thing in your life leave like the seasons.

The worst part is you will always blame yourself because blame seems to be the only thing you can do now.

Wanting to spill all my secrets, only you who could hold on to them. Even when you didn't talk to me, just looked at my eyes I knew you were trying to solve the puzzle they held. Reaching the end, getting to know me better than anyone ever could.

Under the darkness of the night I walked aimlessly, never reaching a stop, searching. Searching for something I lost. Searching for you.

Looking at the sky it's colors reminding me of you. Light purple, blue, orange, and red. Merging together making a beautiful scenery. The night is nearing, my fears are that when I go to sleep you will come out and I won't get to see you. Everyone inside their houses searching for the warmth but how can I get warmth when you are the only thing that warms me?

Where are you? Where can the love of my heart be?

April please give me a sign?

On the verge of giving up, clutching my coat to my chest, I saw fire. Not just any fire. The fire that lights up my heart. The fuel to my energy. The raging flames who never calm. The untamable flames of my love.

"April..." I mutter not believing my eyes.

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Am I dreaming? I rub my eyes attempting to clear my vision. Looking at the familiar red head which once I knew as a brunette. Her hair is longer now and she looks more mature.

I can't believe it's been 5 years. She's already 17 and I'm currently 18. How could time go by so quick? But my feelings remain the same and far stronger.

She's standing still, looking at sky clueless that I stood few a feet behind. She's looking for something I can just tell by her facial expression.