SECRET LOVE NEST '22

Testing Me

February is testing me. Its testing me. My fortitude and patience. Fuck this month!

My manager and I had a little disagreement about the kind of project I want to take on next. There's this script submitted to my manager about a role of a helper of a psychopath serial killer and I read it and I want the part. But my Manager Gege advised me to think about it carefully before auditioning for the role.

Manager: I read about their shooting schedule and it will be brutal, Dayu ah. They want to get this production out quickly. Not to mention this role is psychologically tasking. I mean to be in a mentality of someone bringing victims to a psychopath. Won't that be too much for you?

Me: But I like the role.

Manager: I know. Its a challenging role. Not to mention that you'll be up on the billing if you get the role. But still, you have too many things on your plate this year...

Me: Is this about me preparing for my wedding? I can do both, Gege. Don't worry about me.

Manager: (sighing) Please. Listen to me. There would be other roles you can take.

Me: I want this one.

Manager: (frowning at my tone) You sound like a world class brat just now.

Me: Because you sound like an overprotective and worrywarts old man. I know what I can do and I can do many things.

Manager: I know you can do many things but the pressure of it all might be too much for you. How about some other role. A nice one instead of this dark one.

Me: (stomping my foot) No! I want this one! (waving my hand airily) Don't worry, I'm not gonna have a panic attack on the set and doom all of us.

My assistant and wardrobe personnel both gasped and grimaced at my nonchalant attitude. My manager's frown turned into a full blown scowl of disapproval and he finally said the one thing I hate that he do when I am being difficult.

Manager: I'm gonna call Qing. Maybe he can put some sense in you.

Me: Don't call him! I swear, I will be angry! Qing cannot stop me from doing what I want to do!

My manager ignored me and I threatened to fire him but he ignored that threat too and we are now at in impasse as he passed me to my husband to be to talk some sense into me.

Qing: Does it have to be this role?

Me: Yes.

Qing: (reading some part of the script) It seems dark, Dayu ah.

Me: It is. The psycho boss of my role torture and mutilate people. Of course its dark.

Qing: Thats why...its mentally tasking to do a role like this.

Me: I can handle it.

Qing: Are you sure?

I growled at my fiancé. Qing winced at me.

Qing: Sorry. I don't mean to sound like I am not confident on your acting skill. I know you can pull this role wonderfully. But for what price? We are busy this year on our wedding, you're also dealing with the little things in our home and your cooking lessons. Plus there is your dance studio. Your excursion with my mother. Dayu ah, wouldn't it all be too much?

Yeah, I know. I am dealing with many things this year. By the way, that excursion with Qing's mother is all about introducing me to the different elders in Qing's family and teaching me little things about the Wang Foundation. I mean, we all know I will be a part of this family and everyone pull their own weight here. Pau is helping on the frontline in business side, the least I can do is help on the more private part of this family business.