Mondo Owada x reader [without you]

Sauna (again)

Your P.O.V
After the class trial and the execution of Celestia - or Taeko, I entered the elevator again, thinking about what had happened and trying to process the things that I saw yesterday. After that, I headed to my room, avoiding any conversations for the moment. 
I laid myself down on my bed, finally being able to let out my emotions. I didn't want to cry in front of everyone so I suppressed it. Hugging my pillow tightly, I silently cried into the pillow. 

Surprisingly, I was able to sleep somehow and to cover the fact that I cried. A lot. (I heard cold spoons should help but I don't know if that is true) I eventually headed outside towards the dining hall like every morning. It all felt so weird to appear to those meetings like nothing happened but Taka did have a good point. Those meetings were important though- AT this point, we at least could see who still was alive. 
I sat down on my seat, Mondo next to me. I could tell he was still pissed at Taeko and sad because of Taka. I got the meeting quick behind me, skipping the breakfast before eventually looking around the fourth floor. There really wasn't much to tell, except that some parts like the headmaster's room and the data lab were locked. There also were some more classrooms, a music room and such stuff. 

I  headed back to my room, sitting down on my desk and grabbing the sketchbook I took away from the art room. I tried as hard as I could to continue a bit on Mondo's design, though, it was hard. I just needed to find something to distract myself somehow and try not to think about what had happened but it was so god damn hard. I tried to work on it, though, I didn't came far. I maybe did some lines but this was it basically it.  
I started to remember the words of Mondo that it didn't really use anything to force yourself to anything and then I closed the notebook again, opening a book that I brought from the library some time ago. I started to read and read, eventually even succeeding in refusing to think about what had happened. At least the book gave me some distraction from the things I saw and so I concentrated myself on the story of it. At first, it was really hard to keep my concentration on it but I soon got the hang out of it. I didn't really want to think about it. I mean, it would make me even sadder and since we were in a killing game, it was probably better not to show your weaknesses in front of everyone. 

I soon eventually was almost done with the whole book while I looked onto the clock that hung in my room. It was not a lot of time until the nighttime announcement should be played, maybe another hour. And when I was honest, I didn't really want to go to bed now and I didn't really want to continue reading. When I was honest, the story didn't even bother me, I just needed any distraction and didn't want to head to the library again. And since I've read for at least half of the day, I slowly got bored of it now. I decided to take some time and still go out while not that many students were outside anymore. 
I went along Hope's Peak,  eventually disappearing in the bathhouse where Alter Ego stood again. When I was honest, I didn't even know what to talk about with Alter Ego so I didn't even bother using him. 

Quickly changing myself, I wrapped a towel around my body, entering the sauna. I didn't even know why it was the sauna I went in, I usually never went into a sauna. It was just that, probably, I connected this with good memories of Taka and Mondo becoming friends and all of us getting closer. I mean Mondo and I already talked before they had this argument but now we were even closer and the more I thought about him, the more friendly he seemed and the more I wanted to spend my time with him. 
I sat down on the bench, leaning myself back and closing my eyes. I somehow was able to relax as I suddenly heard the door open some moments later. My head peaked up as my gaze wandered towards the larger figure standing in front of me. "Oh hey-", Mondo let out. "Oh hi", I replied, scratching the back of my head. "Mind if I sit down?", he asked me. "Nah not at all", I replied to him, happy to have someone I could talk to that I actually liked in here. 

He sat down next to me. This time he wasn't so suicidal and wore his clothes in the sauna and had a towel wrapped around his hips. I wasn't quite sure what to say but I somehow wanted to start a conversation so there wasn't that awfully awkward silence. But just as I wanted to say something like 'didn't expect you to be here' or ask something like 'why did you come here?' which usually slowly started into a conversation, he spoke up. "Listen man I'm not good at all when it comes to situations like these but I'm sorry what happened to Taka", Mondo let out. "You don't have to be sorry, it's not your fault", I let out in response. "I know but I could've done something or shit-", he replied. "Listen, it's not possible for you to know what happens to someone all the time- It's not your fault, for real, it's Celestias and Monokuma's fault that this happened", I replied to him. "Yea I guess you're right", He le tout. 
I didn't know how it happened but we somehow made each other feel a bit better. We didn't continue the discussion that it was neither of our fault for too long as we found another topic to talk about. 
And damn- I liked the situation in the moment. and it was really distracting me of what had happened. 

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