Our Desire (Alec Lightwood)

What's Happening To Me

Third POV

Kiana looked Alec deep in the eyes before pulling his head down to her lips, Alec's hands roaming her body exploring every inch he's never touched before.

Kissing and moaning filled the room, "Kiana" Alec whispered against her neck, her body responding in pleasure.

They explored more moving with each other's bodys like an intimate dance but Kiana was far from enjoying it, something was on her mind. "Alec" she spoke softly as he continued to kiss her "Alec" she said more firmly this time making him stop and look up to her "Kiana your eyes" Alec said jumping off her and away from her body.

"Something is happening Alec" Kiana spoke, panicking, and breathing heavily.

"Kiana i need to get someone" Alec said from his spot near the door grabbing his t-shirt and turning back to her "Alec are you crazy" Kiana was now up off the bed and standing "you can't tell a single person in this institute, i'll be shipped off to god only knows where and never seen again" she all but screamed at him.

"you need to calm down" Alec said taking a hesitant step forward but stopping "Alec, I'm fine, it was nothing" Kiana spoke her persona changing quick "Your eyes were freaking glowing Kiana your not fine, Let me get my mother or my father at least"

Kiana stood staring at Alec for what felt like hours but was only seconds before smiling and touching his arm "your right Alec maybe they can help, I'll wait here for you we can't risk anyone else seeing" she said to him filling him with confidence her give her a soft smile and agreed rushing out of her room to get his parents.

"fucking idiot" Kiana screamed when the door closed behind Alec. She leapt around the room throwing things into a bag and practically trashing the place finding her most important things, grabbing her coat and opening the door to check the corridor for Alec or anyone for that matter.

She walked normally to the front door training to keep a low profile and not draw attention to herself.

"Kiana where you heading" Clary spoke from behind her making her freeze in her spot Kiana spun around sloly greeting the red head with a warm fake smile " just popping to see a friend" Kiana answered her politely "Let me grab my coat i'll come with" Clary chirped Kiana's face dropped and she could feel her body shake a little.

"Clary you're not coming, go find Jace and torment him some more" Kiana seethed at her, Kiana had to be cruel to protect herself she turned on her heel and left him through the door and out of the institute.

Kiana POV

I ragged my phone from my trouser pocket, panicking and freaking the hell out, and just to add to my night it's bloody pouring it down so now I'm soaked.

I rung the only person I knew I could trust in this god knows what situation "Hello Kia Darling" his soothing deep voice spoke through the speaker "Raph I need help, I'll be outside the hotel in 5 minutes" was all i said not wanting to risk explaining and him running a mile at least being in front of him he'd feel bad for turning me away.

I stood outside the hotel de mor shivering from the cold "Your freezing" Rapheal said frm behind me make me scream and jump out of my skin "what the fuck Raph" I shouted at him placing my hand on my heart.

"Kiana" he spoke slowly, not breaking eye contact.

"I'm going to guess that your problem is something to do with that" he spoke pointing at my face, I turned to look in the gap of the board up window to see my reflection, and there they were, my eyes glowing a purply blue colour.

"Please Raph, I need help" I begged him looking back at my reflection to see my eyes return to normal, I felt his hand on my arm "Kiana, you could turn into a 9ft monster and I would still always help you" he spoke smiling his ever so cheeky smile.

"Come on everyone is out, you picked a good time to visit" he said, winking leading the way into his residence.

We got to his oh so familiar top floor apartment, "you need to change" he said. I took my bag off my shoulder and sighed "you could alway let me borrow something" I smirked as we both looked at me soaking wet through the bag .

"or you could wear nothing" he smirked, answering me back, the look i gave him was enough to make him go get me something to change into.

I took my top off facing away from Raph, placing his oversized soft black t-shirt over my petite body. "I'll never get used to how perfect you look" I turned and smiled softly at him.

He brought me over a cup and I couldn't believe my eyes when i saw it was hot chocolate with little cute marshmallows "you made me..- ''Hot chocolate" I said dramatically as I sat on the sofa. "Yes my lady, I could never forget your favorite" he said, matching my dramaticness, we laughed for a little, I could help but think back to the old times where we were so perfectly in love.

"I'm going to take you to see someone tomorrow night, he might be able to help with you..- issue" he said pausing in between.

I nodded, reaching for my phone that hadn't stopped buzzing since the minute I entered Raphaels room. "What did he do to make you turn to me for help?" Rapheal said, sitting next to me, placing my tanned olive legs on his.

I scrunch my face at him moving my legs up to me chest "don't say it like that" I scolded him he pulled my legs back down over his lap looking down his face full of regret " Your the only person I can trust Raph, the only person who somewhat understands what it's like to be a freak" I said " no offense" I added with a smile.

I stood up looking at Rapheal's confused face "I'm almost certain that you wouldn't get rid of our bed" I said holding my hand out too him a cheeky glint in his eye "of course not" he spoke standing fast sweeping me off my feet and rushing to the room close by he opened the door and put me down.

"It's exactly the same" I spoke in awe scanning the room, I turned back to Raphael narrowing my eyes "was she ever in this bed" I questioned him scrunching my face up.

"absolutely not" he said in shock and a little anger "I would never, Camile never stepped foot in this room I promise Kiana" he said I smiled widely, he picked me up and threw me on the bed climbing over the tome of me our faces so close "Rapheal" I whispered in a light warning tone " I know I know" he said sighing.

He rolled off onto his side of he bed or where he use to lay when we were together should i say, "hey" I said as i saw him climb off the bed "stay with me, you make me feel safe" I spoke quietly looking at my hands nervous to hear what he's going to stay.

"You Miss Kiana is one very complicated woman, but I can't help but love you," he said with a sad smile climbing into the bed next to me, turning the lamp off.

I could just make him out in the dark, I snuggled closely into his chest, I felt his soft lips place a long kiss on my forehead "despite what you say, I will always love you Kiana even if is him you chose to be with" he spoke confident but sad at the same time.

his grip on my body grew tighter as he pulled me as close as he could to his body.

I knew I loved this man deeply but the love I have for Alec is different, but the last thing on my mind tonight was Alec, instead I was soaking up the comfort and sadness Rapheal gave me.