"Replaced" - Luck Voltia fanfic // Black Clover

Chapter 8: Pouring

I ran away. I couldn't stand being there anymore. Not at all. I didn't want to hear any more of the conversation. No more of it. I wanted to huddle in the corner of a room and cry. How could he forget about me? Magna, my best friend for 3-4 years, forgot about my existence?! Is Clovis's influence really that powerful? He's only been with the squad for about a week!

But I was sick most of the time.

And Magna...

...forgot about me in the meantime.

I can't. I just can't. Before I could open the door to the Base, I dropped to the ground on my knees. Tears kept running down my face and I couldn't order them to stop. I couldn't smile like I used to always do. This is the first time in my life that I felt like this. I also didn't feel this horrible when my mother used to slap me in the face when I was little. I didn't even feel remotely close to this.

A little sprinkle from the sky. Rain? The rain went from a few sprinkles to pouring. I couldn't move though. I should probably get back inside, but it's not only my heart disobeying me, but my body too. I couldn't tell the difference between the rain and my tears. It was all so confusing. Surely I shouldn't be this depressed about it, right?

I should stop trying to convince myself. I have every right to be upset. I hated this. I downright hated this. Will I ever be able to smile my everlasting smile again? I never thought Magna would leave me for someone else...

...to be someone else's best friend.

I'm heartbroken and lost. I couldn't even feel my limbs anymore. I let the rain drench me in water.

"Luck?" A familiar voice said as the Hideout door opened.

I looked up to see who it was. It was Finral, our squad's handy spatial mage. "I..." I couldn't continue speaking. So he remembered me, huh? It's a good feeling knowing that there's someone out there who didn't forget.

"Get inside, quick! You'll catch a cold! And remember to change your clothes too since sitting on the dirt like that has gotten your clothes muddy!" Finral said in a worried tone.

I stood up slowly and as we entered the building, there were no more raindrops to hide my tears. Finral looked at my face and bent down to my level. "Is everything okay?"

"Yeah..." I lied as more tears streamed from my blue eyes. Why did that reply hurt so much?

"It seems like your eyes disagree. Y'know, if there's something that's troubling you, feel free to talk to me. I'd be glad to listen." He said.

"Mhm..." I said as I walked away. Finral watched me, shaking his head at the way I tried to hide my feelings. Why did my eyes have to rebel against my orders at that exact moment? Could they wait?!

Finral obviously thought that it was unhealthy for me to hide my feelings like that. But what else could I have done? I didn't feel like telling anyone, not yet at least. I'd rather it be a secret that's mine and only mine for now. I looked back and saw Finral walking to sit on the couch. The living room wasn't rowdy, probably because everyone was fast asleep in their rooms. I peaked from the side of the wall as the Base door opened. And obviously, it was Magna and Clovis.

Magna had his jacket off and only a short-sleeved white shirt still on. His hair was down and not up like his normal delinquent haircut, and over his glasses. He used his jacket as some sort of umbrella against the rain, holding it above his head. "Should've known it was going to pour. I hate rain." Magna said.

"Oh is that so?" Clovis asked.

Clovis doesn't know everything about Magna yet, obviously. I've known him for 3-4 years. Magna doesn't do well in the rain. In fact, he hates getting wet when he isn't prepared. It took me a few months to figure that out. Once, Magna and I were heading back from a mission we went on together, and it had started raining. Magna got so grumpy that day and couldn't find a way to shield himself from the droplets when riding his Crazy Cyclone.

Thinking of the memories we made together only made me feel worse.

"What were you two doing outside?" Finral asked.

"Just spending the night in nature." Clovis smiled.

Magna shut the door behind him and twisted and squeezed his jacket to get all of the rainwater out of it. "Yeah, shitty times." He joked. Magna has never been interested in the "beauty" of nature and the stars in the sky. It seems like something only Clovis enjoyed since he provoked Magna into doing it.

"In the middle of the night?" Finral asked.

"That's when the stars are out." Clovis answered.

"Are you guys going to go back to bed now? You need sleep." Finral said.

"Sure. I'll take a shower first though." Magna said.

"Alright, suits you." Finral went straight to reading his grimoire.

"I'll need to hang this damn thing to dry." Magna commented, referring to his jacket.

"You can do all of that. I'll go to bed." Clovis said as he walked into the hallway that I was spying from. Before I could run so he couldn't notice me there, his shoulder gently nudged mine as he walked past. He seemed to know I was there, but decided not to question. I waited until he entered his room, and then I walked over to mine. I'll take a shower after Magna does, since I wouldn't want him to catch me there. For now, I used an extra rag to clean up most of the mud and dirt. I wiped my face with another clean rag. I didn't want anyone else to see that I was crying.

I waited a while until I was certain that Magna was finished, and then I finally showered. Glad I could. It was good to be rid of the mud and dirt. I began changing my clothes. Finral's right: they were muddy. I changed out of my normal clothes, aka my oversized light blue shirt and my teal and yellow pants, and wore something that I wouldn't normally wear, a white long-sleeves shirt and black pants. After that, I went to wash my normal clothing. When I was done, I hung it up to dry inside of my room, since it was raining outside.

Then I crawled into my bed, covered myself with the blanket, and tried to sleep. I couldn't sleep earlier, but I should try now at least.

I should...

...try.