Phan Oneshots

from a distant universe

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I S2G IF SOMEONE MENTIONS TENSES IN THIS I WILL CRY I REWROTE HALF OF THIS SO IT WOULD SAY "is" RATHER THAN "was". Don't mean nothing. It's a tense. Pls :( it goes through a time line. It's happy doughnut worry flower buds.
I've also had a crip ton of exams hence why I've been offline for so long ;-;
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He would fall asleep doing coursework, yet manage to stay up just for me.
We'd stay up until 3am over Skype just talking about silly things,
talking about our day,
talking about school, course work, university applications, all the shit we were supposed to be doing.
and talking about us.
And when I was shaking, trembling and stuttering a simple "hello" just because we were finally face to face for the first time he would know how to calm me down in just a few minutes.He would call me when he had a problem, or needed to tell me a silly joke.
He was my best friend.And I was his.
Me and Him could get through anything.
We would be there for each other every hour of every day - just two boys talking over the phone.and that was the problem. see, he had no clue about my feelings for him, nor did he know the way he made my heart melt from simple innocent messages like "I missed you today" and "I hope you're okay, you deserve to be happy".
I was in love with him.
Then again,
How could you not be?
His smile was (and still is) perfect, his laugh could light the darkest of sky within seconds and his eyes - you could melt in them.

I'd come home from a bad day at school and he would always be there to make me feel great about myself, or comfort the misery.

The first time he told me he loved me, I thought it was a joke. Like when you tell your friend you love them after they make you laugh until you cry. That sort of thing, you know? But no. He said it again and again and again, multiple times. Even to the point where he would tell me on skype.
And my reply?
"I love you too."

Words can not describe how amazing he is. he is my soulmate. even if it is just platonically.
He is my world. my universe.
His name, Phil Lester.
And even though we still have not officially been open about anything, I know he is the one for me. it's obvious when you know us in real life, you can probably see it from a distant universe.

I love Phil Lester. With all of my heart and so much more.