Desire: dəˈzī(ə)r
"a strong feeling of wanting to have something or wishing for something to happen."
Ever wanted something that you know you can't have and the more you can't have it the more you want it?
"I want her and I'd give anything to have...
I cringed as I read my journal from high school. I'm Dorian Jade, 25 years old from Miami but I moved to DC. You all may know me by my radio name DJ Jade. I had a day off from the radio station today so I decided to call my best friend over and have him help me clean out my attic.
That sounds so weird doesn't it? On your day off cleaning out an attic?
"Best friend you remember when we was up here smoking that one night and your granddad caught us?"
"How could I forget we thought he was gonna snitch but he joined us"We laughed
"He wouldn't have caught us if you didn't have those baby lungs"
"Not all of us came out the womb being able to smoke a whole pack of newports". I stuck my tongue out at him. "Whatever. I'm about to go get some food you want anything?"
"Yes! Get me a three piece wing comb with salt, pepper, ketchup and Mumbo sauce on everything with a half and half sweet tea"
Eww you eat that carry out shit?," Bryson laughed and grabbed his jacket. "Yes! Ever since I moved to DC when I'm high or drunk or just hella hungry I call the carry out"
"Wow" He laughs
"Here" she handed him a $100. Break that for me.
I'm not carrying $100 in the open like this gimme that journal right there". He said and reached for the journal that had all my love letters.
No! That trash! Just use my card," Dorian sighed
"You're weird I'll be back"
"Wait! Throw this bag of trash out and do not open this book!"
Dorian said and put the book in the trash and hands him the bag.
He kissed her forehead and left. That was close! I do not know what I would do if Bryson found out I was in love with him. Well let me go shower so by time Bry gets back I'll be ready to eat and relax. .. Bryson
I was helping my best friend Dorian clean out her attic on this lovely Saturday. I mean who wouldn't want to clean their attic on a Saturday?
I was on a food run but first I had to dump this trash that she gave me. As I stopped at the dumpster I couldn't help but stare at the journal. What was in there? He turned back around to make sure Dorian wasn't watching and he took the journal out the bag, then ran to his car.
Once he was in the car he made his way to McDonald's first and read chapter one of her journal.
"Bryson, Ugh why do you have to always talk about little Ms.Perfect Clarissa McBeth or should I say McBitch. -rolls eyes- is it because she got big boobs? Or she got her period first? Ugh maybe by time we hit 10th grade I'll grow some boobs"
"Yeah Dorian was definitely a late bloomer". Bryson thought as he pulled up to the drive thru.
DT worker: Welcome to McDonalds "Yo let me get a fish sandwich combo my guy" DT worker: No problem. $6.55 pull forward.
While I waited for my food I called Dorian's order in and continued reading her diary.
Page 2: Bryson, I just wanted you to ask me to the 8th formal but you asked Clarissa! Page 3: Bryson when are you going to realize it is me who loves you! I'm the one you should be with! Now look at you. You showed up at my house crying and sad because Clarissa stood you up. Page 4: prom night. I'm going with my boyfriend when I really wanted to go with you. Had you been my prom date i would have let you take my virginity. I heard from a couple of the girls on the track team that you were good... so why not?
"No fucking way Dorian loves me?! She's in love with me?! She wanted me to be her first?!"
By the 6th page I was shook. How come she never told me? I would've been more than happy to be her first love and lover. Nah man I got to say something about this but how? I can't just go tell her I read her diary. Bryson put what he saw behind him and finished the food run. When I got back to her house she was sitting on the couch wearing my T-shirt with a pair of Nike shorts. "Damn she's beautiful"
Thanks best friend you're a life saver I was starting to waste away". Dorian laughed
You still would be beautiful," Bryson said catching him and Dorian off guard. Nothing else was said Dorian just put on the movie Soul Men starring Samuel L Jackson and Bernie Mac.
"I hate my nigga Bernie died he was funny as shit" "He really was"
"Dorian can I ask you something?"
"Yeah sure B".
"You remember Clarissa?"
"McBitch? Yeah I hated her why?"
"Why did you hate her?"
"Because"
"Is it because I took her to 8th grade formal?"
"Bryson, she stood you up. Remember? Why are you asking these weird questions?"
"You're gonna hate me but I took your journal out of the trash and read it".
