Everything's Electric

10

   Damon locked the door behind us, and when he turned around he went in for a kiss. I stumble back a bit but kissed back.

Times like this, where he kisses me out of frustration, makes me feel a certain feeling. And I like that certain feeling. I like how rough he is, with gentle words of praise. I like how quiet he'd get, just focusing on the deed. I like how he holds me under his weight, when he gives me love marks.

I like Damon. I love Damon. And he likes me, he loves me back.

So why? why do i feel what we're doing right now is wrong. why can't i push the growing guilt that i wish Damon, was Liam instead.

The thoughts of Liam fucking me with such passion, and such love with a perfect mix of lust arouses me. and i feel sick at the same time. What will Damon think of me, that I'm a slag? It breaks my heart, that the man I love is showing me how much he loves me and all I can think about is another man.

I am beyond torn.

I sat inside the bath tub, naked, gasping for air next to Damon, who caressed my hair with such care.

And in that moment i came with the settlement that i'll never call, see or even notice Liam Gallagher's existence.

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Watching the band and attending their gigs distracted me from the guilty thoughts i had that night.

Damon was unbelievably amazing, and weird, but that's why I seem to like him. He never cares about how people see him, no matter how much he tells me that he hates people not caring about how he acts. He says things and then nods it off. He's a funny fella.

And i'm always the listener, who stayed beside him no matter how long he talked for without getting annoyed or tired. It's so entertaining hearing his thoughts, and it's comforting to me that he trusts me enough to share his thoughts and act how he wants to.

"Hey love." Damon grinned widely and I felt like i was in the heavens. He gave me a tight hug, as we walked farther away from the sidelines of the stage.

"You were amazing tonight." I chuckled and he kissed my cheeks. "I know, love."

"So? You hungry, there's a nice restaurant I wanna show you." Damon said and I nod, kissing his jaw.

I feel like a child again, Damon never fails, no matter how busy, to make it seem like we're the dumb 19 year olds sneaking off to expensive restaurant when the next day we have our examinations.

we neared the restaurant and i felt shy about how we were dressed so boringly for such a fancy place.

there wasn't much people, and that made it a relief.

we sat by an open view, and it seemed Damon had something planned.

my heart skipped a beat when I realised whats about to happen.

but i could be wrong. what if he just wants one fancy romantic night?

the wine came, so did our fancy pastas and it was just us laughing and sharing words of our day.

until i mindlessly drunk my wine, then i felt the taste of metal.

Damon must've noticed, as I looked at him with a wide eyed, confused look.

He tried to hold in a laugh but when I pulled a ring out of my mouth, he bursted into laughter.

"Damon?!" I asked confused, he calmed himself down, but still had a shit-eating grin as he grabbed my other hand, "Frances," he began.

oh god.

"I honestly never thought I'd commit to someone this long and I have this weird feeling to commit forever." he says.

"I have a whole speech just for you, but now I feel nervous and I forgot what I was gonna say." he chuckled.

"Oh my god, Damon." I gasped softly, tears threatening to fall down.

"Francheska, Will you marry me?"

I laughed, "Oh my god Damon! Yes! A million times Yes!"

He laughed and quickly grabbed the ring from my other hand, not before wincing bc its still wet from the wine, "you're a child." i commented.

he inserted it to my ring finger before leaning in and giving me the best kiss i've ever had for the whole 24 years i've been alive.

I leaned back and separate from the kiss, as i adored the ring. he had a cheek numbing grin as he watched my eyes twinkle, absolutely stunned.

the diamond was pinkish, placed on top of a simple gold band with flowers engraved each side of the diamond. I thought about how I would've reacted if it was Liam who did this for me, who got me the astonishing ring.

my heart sunk for the first time in a week when I realise what i've brought myself into.

I'm engaged to the love of my life, but I'm thinking about a life with another.