Stray Kids Imagines

A Bit Insecure ~ Bang Chan

YOUR POV
You were excited as you sat down on the couch, turning the TV on in the process. Today, Chan was going to an awards show where he would get the chance to interview one of the idol groups who won an award.

This was a big thing for him, and he was super nervous about it before having to head to the center for sound check. Looking at him through the screen in your apartment, he seemed calmer though, seeming to hold it together.

The award show went on for about 30 minutes before they had Chan come up and announce the girl group of the year, which Twice had won. When the girls made it up on the stage, they were beyond excited.

Their cheerful banter and friendly atmosphere were clear to see when they all engulfed Chan in a group hug and began to bounce around on the stage. You couldn't help but smile at the scene on the screen, but then something unexpected happened—Chan's behavior took a noticeably touchy turn.

The group had pulled away from the hug and stood back while the next announcer made their way to the front to announce the next categories. You couldn't help but keep your eyes on Chan as you noticed the sudden shift in his demeanor.

He started to talk to Sana, getting giggly at whatever they were whispering about in the back, and there was a sense of playfulness in his physical contact. Although it might have been perceived as innocent by others, it struck a chord of insecurity within you. You knew they were close, but you didn't expect Chan to show such composure at an event like this.

At that, you turned your TV off and sat there for a moment contemplating the interaction. You found yourself growing distant, your mind consumed by doubts and insecurities.

No matter what you told yourself—'they're just happy they won,' 'they're only friends,' etc.—you couldn't shake the image of Chan's touchy behavior from your thoughts. You wanted to text him, ask him what that was about, but you didn't want to ruin his night, so you simply decided to call it a night and go to sleep.
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When you woke up, Chan was sleeping right beside you, and for a brief moment, as you looked at his adorable sleeping position, you forgot all about the incident. You decided to push it aside and focus on the time you get to spend with him today.

You got up and proceeded to go make breakfast for the two of you. You made Korean pancakes, with some eggs and spam, and just as you had finished the last pancake, you heard his footsteps ring through the apartment, and you felt his presence behind you.

"Morning, babe," he said as he wrapped his arms around your back, placing a kiss on your cheek.

"Morning, how'd you sleep?" you asked as you returned your kiss on his cheek. He swayed you around a little before letting go and walking to the dinner table to sit down.

"Great, I was so tired after last night. Nothing beats getting to sleep in."

"That's good to hear," you said and moved to make his plate for him. You opened the fridge to grab a drink to pour when you heard a laugh from him. Glancing at him, you saw that he's on his phone, appearing to text someone.

You ignored it, not that it was any of your business in the first place, and grabbed a glass to pour the drink into before walking to place it on the table for the two of you. He chuckled again, this time muttering a little phrase in Korean after, causing your suspicions to rise. You headed into the kitchen again to grab the plates of food and then made your way to the table for the last time. He laughed again, and your insecurities got the best of you. You just had to know.

"Who's that?" you asked as you placed his plate in front of him and walked around to sit in front of him with your plate. He let out another laugh before answering you.

"Sana, just talking about the show last night. Did you get to watch it?" And just like that, the thoughts from last night resurfaced in your mind. He was texting Sana about the award show. Had something happened after their little interaction on stage for her to continue texting him? You were very bothered now. You sighed a bit before replying to him.

"Yes, but I didn't watch the whole thing. Ended up falling asleep," you said, then averted your eyes from him, your face forming a frown in the moment. You didn't want him to think that anything was wrong, but your face is very expressive, which you hated.

"Is something bothering you, (Y/N)?" Chan asked, his voice tinged with concern. You glanced up from your food and offered a fake soft smile.

"No, I'm just tired," you lied, then picked at your food a little, placing a piece of spam in your mouth before averting your eyes from him again. He placed his phone down on the table, and his hand reached out to caress your hand that was on the table.

"Come on, you can be honest with me, you know." You hesitated for a moment before finally gathering the courage to speak your mind. If you didn't, you'd continue to beat yourself up over it.

"Okay, well, I saw how touchy you were with Sana during the interview. It just made me feel some kind of way." Chan's face softened, realizing the impact of his actions.

"Are you jealous?" he asked you, and you simply shrugged, not knowing the answer much yourself.

"Honestly? Maybe? I don't know exactly what it is, but it just bothers me."

"Do you not trust me?" Chan asked, and you sighed, feeling a mix of relief and lingering discomfort.

"I do... I just... I think I'm a bit insecure," Chan looked at you, hand in his, his gaze filled with sincerity. There was not one thing he had ever done to make you feel this way, so when this just came out of nowhere, you were a bit confused, honestly.

"You are more than enough, (Y/N). No one can replace what we have. The touchy behavior was just out of pure excitement because they won. I didn't realize how it might affect you. I'm sorry." (Y/N) looked into Chan's eyes, searching for reassurance. He shouldn't have to apologize for something like this.

"No, I'm sorry. I trust you, Chan, but sometimes insecurities get the better of me, and I shouldn't have let that happen."

Chan nodded, his expression earnest. "I understand, but I am sorry I made you feel that way." He brought your hand up to his lips and placed a gentle kiss on it. "Don't worry, baby, mmhm? I'm yours, and I will never in a million years leave you."