His hiraeth, my 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒘

Pillow fight

"There is me, but there is also you. Again me and like me" I rehearsed in front of the mirror
"I'm so confused what are you trying to say," Belle asked
"Me and you" I looked at her
"Delilah it makes no sense. We were talking about coffee beans, what the hell is you and me?"
"You and me? That we are different" I said and laughed
"Shut up"
"Are you staying over at Ian's today?" She asked and I shrugged
"Maybe" I gave her a toothy smile
It was a day off from everything else, I had to work on my paper and Ian and me just happened to enjoy each other's company. A lot.

"Black or black?" I asked Ian holding out a black collared shirt and a black sweater vest in the other.
"Black" he knitted his eyebrows
"Both it is"
"We won't stay long, we will try getting out of it soon" I said and he nodded fixing his hair
"We will do our own thing after the brunch" I gave him a thumbs up and got up
"I'm going to change" I said picking up my cloths from his bed
"You can change here"
"No it's okay it will take me a minute" I said looking up to a smirky Ian standing. I pulled my sweaty hands in my pockets and gulped. I felt my body tense up to his eyes and my knees get weak.
"I don't mind, you can take as long as you want" he said taking a step forward. My breath hitched in my throat and I shaked my head
"I don't wanna bother" I said moving back as he kept taking steps towards me. I felt my hand touch the back of the wall as I cried for more room move back.
"Oh it's really not a bother" he said placing his hand on  right side of my face onto the wall. I took a breath in and sucked in my belly. He walked closer and I couldn't find space to move anymore. Why am I like this?
He moved his face towards my face and placed his lips on my neck. I felt goosebumps rise as he placed a soft kiss under my ear and moved on the top biting my ear lobe softly.  I bit my lip holding back a moan and let his hands softly graze my arm. He moved his hands to my waist and let them stay there. His long fingers moved circles on my waist as he moved my head sideways for more space. I got the courage to move my hands up his chest and into his hair. I felt his chiseled body on the top of my fingers and moved them up and down while placing them on his neck. I felt an urge of pleasure come by as I pulled his towards me and got shy instantly so stayed there in the position. He felt the tension in my body and pulled me into him and looked me up into my eyes. I bit my lip hard with the urge to kiss and smile at him. He placed his pinky on my bottom lip grazing it softly. He looked at me and back at my lip before moving forward and biting my bottom lip. I let out a soft moan and placed my hand in his hair. My hands roamed around his soft, silky hair as he   pulled onto the hem of my shirt and placed his cold hands on my naked waist pulling my shirt enough to view my waist. I hugged my own body internally, afraid of my insecurities getting in the way, afraid of him disliking my body, my body marks or even the way it looked. I felt myself stand there as he kept pecking my lips. I felt my heart sink yet I let his hands travel around to feel every insecurity in my body. I felt my eyes get watery but I held it back as I managed to kiss him back. I have been with him for 2 months now yet I'm afraid to let go off my insecurities. He broke the kiss and looked up at me and gave me the most reassuring smile. I felt my heart drop as he moved a piece of my hair behind my ear, he placed his forehead against mine and held onto my pinky. He looked up at me ready to say something but I cut him off by placing my lips on his. I felt him smile through the kiss and he moved me around placing me on the bed. He laid me down softly getting on top of me. I let his body fall down onto me as if I was floating onto a bed of flowers,  his body smooth like butter, his touch was feather, his kisses were passionate, they would be raw, hungry yet so deep and soft. He hands travelled under my shirt placing it on my belly. I sucked it in again getting scared but he moved it to the side of my belly and moved his hands around like he his hands were talking to me. Without having to say anything his hands spoke to me. His hands moved back up as he went down kissing my neck and further kissing from the top of the shirt as he stopped at my belly, I felt my toes curl as I felt his lips press in my jelly type belly. He looked up and kissed it again before laying down onto my belly. He placed his hands under my waist and laid his head there. Cuddling me tightly he kept pecking onto my side and came back up and cuddled me laying his head on my chest. We stayed there in the position for a good ten minutes. It felt like a nano second, I wanted to stay in the position forever. I missed him as he got off my chest and look at me. He pecked my lips and smiled "I love you" I felt those three words leave my lips as they curled a huge smile on his face "and I love you" he pulled out his pinky "pinky promise" I tangled my pinky with him "lock it with a kiss" I smiled as we went back to letting our lips talk.