His hiraeth, my 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒘

Flour

I bit into my chicken aggressively as Chloe sat next to Ian in the balcony explaining how shit life is without him or not. I can't tell what they're talking about
"He left you for a reason" I said and waited for Ian to throw her down the balcony.
"I'm gonna puke" I sighed as I turned away and laid down on the floor
I looked up at the roof, looking up for help. At god for help. I placed my hands together and closed my eyes
"I have had a million ups and downs in my life, I've lost people everyday in my life. I have got nothing else left in my life, I don't have the stamina, the energy to fight anyone anymore. I just want him. I crave him when he leaves, I miss him when he isn't around me, I need him for the little and big things, he is the one I want, I pray for, cry for. All I want is to be with him. I want to be his destiny, I want to be his desire, his love, his eyes, his soul, his heart and his life. Almost three months in and I haven't loved anymore more ever. Write him for me, in the stars, for the moon, for my destiny. Just me" I let myself get vulnerable and prayed to god
"That was a beautiful prayer" I opened my eyes as I watched Ian walk next to me. He laid down on the floor next to me and looked at me
"Is everything okay?" I asked and he nodded
"They want me back home" he sighed
"Are you leaving?" I asked and he moved closer and hugged me
"No jaan" he said
A part of me told me he missed his family and he needed them and wants them.
"She thinks there is a chance I can make things work with her. She believes she is head over heels in love with me and these past few months have been impossible without me" he said
I don't care what anyone says or does all that matters is how he responds.
"It is never going to happen. I never did or felt anything towards her and further on I could never feel anything towards her. It's all you baby, all my love, attention is all for you. I could never feel about her or any other girl the way I feel about you" he reassured me

I woke up to a severe pain in my head, I turned to the side to see an empty bed side. I barely got any sleep last night all I could do was over think about the incident last night. It wasn't anything big it was a rejection on Chloe's face but I'm afraid of tables turning, heart break, pain and most of all losing Ian.
I got out the blanket as my feet hit the cold floor. I looked around for Ian in the room and walked outside towards the kitchen. "Someone's cooking" I smiled to the smell of breakfast and walked towards the kitchen. There he stood with his perfectly shaped body holding onto the spatula and flipping his eggs. I stayed there for a while checking him out in only his grey sweats and nothing else while he bobed his head to the weeknd. I smiled as I walked towards him and hugged it from behind. I held onto his waist and placed my head on his back. "Good morning princess" he smiled while turning around. "Hey handsome whatch ya cooking" I asked while swirling my finger in the whipping cream next to the counter. "This tastes so good"
"Sit down I am making us food"
"No I like this better" I whined as I hugged his naked chest again. I felt his hands slide down my waist as he lifted me up making me screech and placed me on the kitchen top. "Give me kiss" I asked him and he pecked my lips "again" I pouted and he kissed me again
"Again" I said
"Last one" he said and kissed me
"MORE"
"First eat" he said placing a plate of waffles in my hand
I dipped my hand in the cream and placed it on his lips "Kissy" I smiled and licked off the cream off his lips
"You're so naughty"
"Please! I'm innocent"
"My ass"
"Your ass is my favourite" I said while squeezing his little tushie

I smiled as my heart filled with happiness and I held onto his hands. "Ian"
"Yes baby"
"This is for you" I smiled as I handed him a letter in an envelope
"What is this?" He said as he tried opening it. I held his hands and looked at him
"Not right now. This is something I want you to open when things don't seem right. When things are difficult. When you need me but I'm not there. When you just want to escape and venture our dream. The Ian and Delilah dream"
"You're such a deep person and cute. I'm going to be so anxious to open it"
"Not yet jaan" I said and giggled at him