His hiraeth, my 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒘

Jaan

I scrolled through his laptop as he showed me pictures of little chubby Ian. He has blushy pink cheeks that you just wanted to eat and the cutest nose and prettiest eyes. I made sure I send his childhood pictures to myself before looking over at him and admiring him. "You've the prettiest eyes" I smiled while moving a strand of his hair.
"Cute" I looked back and Belle standing in the kitchen door frame with a Polaroid snapping a picture of us.
"Let me get us a drink" Ian said getting off the floor and walking to the kitchen. I turned back to my phone and looked at his childhood pictures again. They were irresistible. "Ahh I wonder how our kids are gonna be like" Belle said while she roamed around me. "Oh shut up" I slapped her arm while my cheeks heated up. "Your kids are gonna be hella chubby"
I smiled at the thought of having a family together. It's too soon but my mind wanders in places there is no coming back from. I had scenarios play in my head. A little boy running out of my arms while I try to feed him, I am running behind him in the house while he runs out the backyard and into his fathers arms. I raise up my gaze to see Ian walking towards us with our little boy in his arms. He is smiling and talking to him while I stand there and look at my favourite people in the world.
"Earth to Delilah"
"I wanna get married" I smiled hard as I laid on the floor and felt my heart beat out of my chest.
"Too soon, I need to join the gym" Belle joked and I looked at her
"I'm so fucking happy. I feel so in love. OVER THE MOON IN LOVE BELLE" I stood up as I shaked her and she laughed
"Breathe"
"Oh give me that" I said as I snatched the Polaroid picture out her hands.
It was beautiful, I was looking at the camera with a hand across his leg, his hand was draped around my shoulder and he was smiling at me. I smiled at his pinky holding onto my pinky tightly. I walked over to Ian and showed him the picture, he instantly took it and put it at the back of his phone. I smiled at his cuteness and hugged him.

I sat outside Ian's university while he went in to pick his things he forgot a while ago. I looked outside at the clear sky and drew the shape of the clouds on the window. I looked to the right on the stairs watching a short timid girl walking down the big steps. She held onto her bag and pushed her hair out her face. She had almond shaped eyes that aligned with her short bridge nose. I watched her short feet take light yet heavy step which almost felt like a time lapse going over and over again. I watched as her foot dangled in front of the other and caught the hem of her jeans and tripped. I gasped and opened the door, running towards her and trying to help.

"Are you alright?" I asked as she fixed her posture standing up
"Yea" she sighed as she looked down as a few of the students stared at her
"Thank you for the help" she smiled at me and I nodded
"No problem" I said as I placed my hands on my back and slid them in my pockets
"I'm Sarah by the way" she pulled out her hand and I shaked it
"Delilah"
"Are you from around here?" She asked
"I am but I don't go here"
"I don't either" she gave me a crooked giggle
"I work nearby, I just come here occasionally" she said while trying to eye someone behind me. I tried catching up with her and couldn't tell if she was finding someone or running away from someone.
"Delilah, here you are" I turned around to a panting Ian who instantly jumped into a hug. He held onto my waist and smiled at me "I got it" he said as he waved a letter at me
"Recommendation letter?" He gave me the biggest smile and I kissed him
He looked up links to join and upgrade his music game hence he needed the recommendation letters to get into the finest ones that were also associated with the school. I felt his excitement as he squeezed my hands and jumped around. I hyped in excitement with him and we both screamed. We both calmed down and looked at the person in front of us. "Oh sorry! Ian this is Sarah" he gave her a small wave as she pulled out a hand for him to shake. She instantly took it back as Ian spoke "Sarah?"
"Sarah Ben chó, I work across the street"
I watched his gaze shift back to me like it didn't matter who was in front of him. I internally screamed as he gave me the attention and worth any girl would ever want. "I've seen you around, you come often at the cafe don't you?" She gave Ian a huge grin that made me uncomfortable but I threw the thought back
"Just sometimes" he nodded as I watched his body tense up
"I should leave maybe we can hangout?" She asked and I smiled
"Sure" I put in my number in her phone and she walked away
Is it weird that I made a friend in a minute? It's always been easy for me to make friends but it's always been hard to trust them, to let them or even to give them time. Every time my trust breaks I stop trusting everyone around me and I didn't know if I wanted to give it another try.
I looked at Ian who was just looking at the envelope in hand and I sensed his mood go off. "IAN" I screamed and he looked up
"YOU GOT THE LETTER!" I screamed and I watched his lips curl into a smile and he nodded instantly

I picked up my phone and face-timed Ade, I laughed at her the nonsense she has been up-to lately and caught up on all the tea. "I want to come see you"
"Why don't you come visit? When is break?"
"Next month" she sighed
"Are you saying you miss me?" I teased her
"NEVER"
"I was reading a new book and this line reminded me of you and Ian" she smiled
"What is it?"
"I'll send it to you"

"She is the noor of my eyes and the sultan of my heart"
-Khaled Hosseini
The quote played in my head as I imagined him as the light at the end of the tunnel, when darkness takes over he is there to shine in my eyes and light up my world. He is the sultan of my eyes. The king who took over it and has it captured with love, holding onto it softly and making my soul feel like the queen of his universe.
He plays as the jaan of my life. He is it. Jaan for me is someone who is my everyday, who I trust to never hurt me, never judge me, he is the reason I wake up in the mornings, I look up to, admire in my everyday life, I turn my entire life to, the world revolves around him. In a simple clingy word anyone would say would be "he is the reason I live, my hope and my only destiny"
I did turn my world towards him, he is it, he is the world I want to adventure everyday.

I walked with a smile towards Ian's apartment with his favourite cake. I reminisced my thoughts from today and bit my lip from holding back a huge smile. He opened the door to his apartment and I failed at hiding my smile. He was on his phone and pointed his finger signalling me to come in. I walked in after him like a puppy and followed him around. I placed the cake on the table and walked around as he held my hand and kept talking on the call. I looked at him as he drew circles on my fingers. He pulled me closer to him while sitting on the chair and turned me around placing me on his lap. I felt butterflies emerge as I sat on his lap and wrapped my arms around his shoulders, I pecked his cheek as he ended the call. "How's my love?" He asked while pecking my lips. "Very well now and how are you?" I smiled and he replied "I'm good" he pouted and I could tell something was wrong "are you okay?"
"I keep getting spam calls just looking into it we are good don't worry" he said and I was broken off as he teased me around "what did my love bring me?" He asked and I got the cake for him and ran to grab a fork "cake" I grinned as he picked up the lid and read the letters on the cake. It took me a courage of a milestone to write those words "jaan". He pulled me towards him and placed his hands on my waist. I sucked in my breath and he stood up. I looked at him as my heart kept drowning, scared for what's to come. "you're my jaan" I felt my feet dangle on the floor, getting weak and melting. "That's our special little word" my heart fluttered as those words left his mouth. I have always wanted someone to call me that and having it all makes it feel like a dream, a beautiful dream I never want to wake up from.

Ian's pov

We laid on the couch with avengers playing in the background as I held onto her. She would keep sliding back hugging my body tighter each minute, her face would softly graze on mine. Her touch kept asking for me, it asked for affection, love and most of all me. I've never been loved or adored by someone the way she does, she carries me, she respects and motivates me. She set boundaries to everything but me. I kept falling each day over and over for her. I smiled as she laid calmly in my arms. "I want a cat" she said and turned around at me
"We can get a cat" I kissed her forehead
"Really?"
"A small little kitten?" I nodded as she asked me like a baby
"When?" She sat up and I pulled her back down
"Tomorrow?"
"You're the best" she said and collapsed onto me
We cuddled tightly when the phone rang and broke the cuddle. She picked up her phone that read as an unknown caller. I looked confused at to her getting spam calls now and waited for someone to talk as she said hello. A girl spoke back in a high pitched voice and she looked at me confused. "Sorry who is this?" She asked
"Sarah" she replied and we both went into a big O
"Wasn't expecting a call so soon. How is it going?" she asked her and snuggled into me
"I was just wondering if you would like to go on a brunch. You can bring friends if you would like"
She looked at me and mouthed to me "will you go?" I shrugged and gave her a light nod
"Sure let me know when"
I zoned out as I listened to both of them talk. She sounded mysterious, someone I wouldn't trust but Delilah needs friends here so I didn't want to get in the way of that. So I guess we will test out the waters and see if she trust worthy or not. But something in my gut said no. She is bad news.
If she ever is I'll be there to save her.
"You wanna call friends babe?" She asked me and I shrugged again
"Maybe I'll ask someone around. It's just weird she wants us to bring friends"
"Maybe it's a trap" she said teasing me
"Delllll you know what I mean na"
"Yes handsome I do" she said tickling me only for me to take over and make her laugh till I hear her snort over and over
"These snorts are only for me" I screamed and she laughed louder
"NEVERRR"

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-Menahil