His hiraeth, my 𝒎𝒐𝒐𝒏𝒃𝒐𝒘

"Chloe"

Chapter 6

It's been 12 hours since I last texted him, he hasn't replied. Maybe he changed his mind, doesn't wanna bother with me? I sat down jotting down notes in class with my mind in another place. I need to stop thinking about this. I spend my entire life working hard for this day to sit in this place and finally become something one day. I can't lose this because my heart or brain wants to think about something else. This is the last thing I need right now. I looked in front and concentrated, finally using my head for something good. I picked up my pace catching on the lecture.
As soon as the class ended I picked up my bag and started walking towards the door "Delilah?"
"Yes?" I looked back at the professor snd stopped
"Would you be interested in joining the HLS health law and policy research team?" He asked and I smiled at him
"Of course that sounds great"
"We are hosting our first meeting tomorrow before class be here by 6am" I smiled and nodded at him
"Thank you I will be there" I walked outside the classroom and go on Google
"What do I even have to do?"

Ian's pov

I reached back home taking the next flight as soon as possible looking at Moms pale face "what did you say to her?" She questioned me
"I swear nothing I barely spoke to her"
"HE IS THE REASON SHE IS IN THE HOSPITAL" I heard Tom running and screaming towards. "I didn't eve-
Before I could finish the sentence he placed his hands firmly onto my collars while I felt his alcohol breath hit my face "I'll fucking ruin you if she dies" he pulled me closer almost trying to choke me. I took onto his hand and pushed him backwards "don't touch me ever again" I moved back and walked towards the front door "I am going to see her"
"YOU WONT GO ANYWHERE! I have had enough of you Ian you went to the point where you almost got us on the streets"
"Dad"
"She tried to kill herself because of you if we didn't reach there at the right time she would've been killed"
"Listen can we talk about this calmly"
"It doesn't matter anymore it depends on Chloe if she wants to break it off it's on her otherwise you, your business and this house is over" Tom said as he grabbed another glass of drink

I walked outside the front door rushing to my car. For a fact I knew Chloe would never understand my situation, what does she even see in me!
"Ian" I turned around hoping off my feet as I heard the most close voice to my heart. I turned around looking at her "Maeve" I smiled as I instantly got her in a hug. "What are you doing here?" I looked at her and she gave me a tiny smile "your sister comes back after 6 months and the first thing you ask is what am I doing here?" She huffed moving back a little
"No of course not I'm so happy you're back"
"Me too Ian. I heard what happened is Chloe alright?"
"I don't know I haven't seen her yet and why do you still care for her after all she did"
"She is your fiancé you should be the first one she sees and no matter what that matter would stick by me forever now" I sighed looking at the other side of the yard
"I am going to get there I'll catch you when I come back" she nodded as I walked towards the car
"I need details" she screamed and I laughed
"You got it"  I put on my seat belt and got to the hospital.

"Is she going to be okay?" I asked as I entered the doctors office. He nodded his head "they weren't deep cuts throughout the body, I am guessing it was a suicide act so we cannot let her go with a consultation from a psychiatrist. There were two cuts made on the wrist she did lose blood since it wasn't deep she didn't damage anything. But she would need a lot of fluids and rest for the next couple of days" I nodded taking in the prescription he wrote and walked out the office.
"Can I see her?" I asked before walking out
"Yes" I walked over to her room and slid smoothly into her room.
"Chloe?" I softly called out her name as she tugged onto her pillow
"You came" she looked at me turning to my face patting on her empty bed side
"Cuddle?"
"I am going to give you space for now you need it" I said sitting down on the chair beside her
"I missed you" she held my hand trying to hold onto it tight
"Why'd you do it Chloe?"
"You don't want me?" She asked quivering her lips
"It's complicated Chloe, I can't force myself to love someone" she tried sitting up straight and looked at me "I love you and I don't care who walks this earth I want you and only you and if I don't get you. I promise you Ian you're never going to stay happy" she sat up furious at me
"Chloe! You fucked me up, my parents, my sister how do you expect me to forgive you" she moved closer to me placing her hand on my cheek
"Ian baby I could never hurt" she whispered holding onto the back of my neck digging her nails into them
"I only want good for you and I am it" she dug her nails deeper making me flinch
"You need help" I broke off the contact with her hand and stood up
"You're only ruining your life marrying me" I said while turning my back towards her
"Ian one last thing" I looked at her and she had a playful smile
"We are on top of every international business magazine, our engagement news spread like wildfire and did no one tell you it's in 2 weeks" she smiled waving a magazine in my face
At that point my soul left my body, I felt my heart close down as I ran out to catch a breath.
No one told me I was so busy running after someone I didn't even see what was happening behind me. I sat down in the car and opened my dashboard I rummaged through to find one thing I needed right now. I didn't care about promises anymore I took out the pack of cigarettes and lit up one. I inhaled as it hit me rock bottom with a feeling of pleasure. I coughed midway almost choking on my saliva and continued with the torture. I looked outside the window as the world moved at its own pace. I narrowed my eyes as I started the ignition.

It was half past eleven when I turned on my phone. I didn't bother picking it up or replying as I continued with driving to the farthest place I could go. "Dad needs you"
"He is sick"
"Come home"
"Ian dad had a stroke"
I read the text over and over as flashbacks came ahead of his words. I raced back home with a heavy heart full of guilt and tears. "Please don't leave me" I felt my vision blur as tears filled up my eyes "I am sorry" I tried calling back Mom and Mae but non of them picked up. "I'm sorry"
"OPEN THE GATES" I screamed as no one was there to open the gates up. I got out the car and ran to the back door "open the goddamn gates" I screamed running back to the gates and waiting there. "I am sorry si-
"Just park the car" I ran inside the house and up to Dads room
"DAD" I instantly got in for a hug and looked at his face
"Are you alright? What happened? What did the doctor say? Is Dr Stevens here?"
"He just left" he coughed
"Stroke? I am sorry this is because of me isn't it?" He looked at me with sorrow eyes
"Please marry her" he pleaded
"Dad"
"Please" my heart sank each time he pleaded in front of me "how can I ever say no to you" I held back my heart and hugged him as he smiled at me "I'm so proud of you"
"You should rest" I got up from his side and smiled at him leaving his room as every piece of my heart broke into pieces. I felt my heart ache in pain my head get heavy and the feeling of sickness rose to me.
"Sir" I heard Nathan call out to me
"It's Ian for you Nathan"
"I'm just your chauffeur"
"Never for you" I said and he pulled me into a hug
"Maybe you can figure out a way to get out of this" I patted his back walking towards my room and locking the door behind me. I laid down on my bed and pulled my hands together in a prayer "please god help me"
"Hey stranger hope you're feeling better. Del :)"
I looked at my phone and a shot of pain hinged my heart, I smiled at the text but cried as it could be nothing for me. I put my phone aside wrapping myself into my sheets and tried sleeping.
"Maybe we can go for a drive"
"Where would you like to go" I smiled as I looked at the passenger seat holding onto her hand. "Anywhere I don't know" she whined pulling her hair up. "Pick a song SOMETHING we can jam onto together" I said as I handed her my phone
"But I don't know any" she pouted
"Yes you do Delilah come on" she started going through a list of songs and hesitated before putting something on
"Come on let's jam to this I know you listen to this a lot" I said putting on an old Ali Gatie vibe
"And how would you know" she asked turning towards me where I could see her left dimple pop
"I just do" I smile turning up the volume and taking her hand in mine. "YOU BETTER SING"
"I don't know how to" she whined
"Why're you shy around me come on sing for me" she started whispering lyrics in her mouth when I looked at her and sang my heart out loud to her. I picked up her hand and moved it around "SING LOUDER JAM WITH ME" she gave me a nervous laugh and shaked her head looking at me putting her head back on the seat. I turned the volume down as she tried to say something "What's wrong baby?"
"You're cute" she smiled looking at me with loving eyes "You're cuter" I smiled at how hard she smiled at me as we reached near a park. "Come out" I smiled as she was getting out the car "nah ah ah ah stop" I said as I ran towards her door and closed it. I opened the door for her "now you may come out" I smiled as she laughed coming out pinching my cheeks "you're so cute" I grabbed onto her hand with a thousand butterflies emerging through me. We ran across the sand and onto the swings. "Sit down" I said pointing to the swings holding onto hands and swinging "Look at the stars" she said looking up at the sky "those are not stars those are planets " she looked at me confused
"Shh don't ruin stars for me" she smiled getting up and standing between my legs wrapping her arms around me and sitting down on my lap. I looked at her lightened face in the night sky and put my hand on her neck looking into her eyes. I leaned in forward towards her as I felt shivers up my spine onto her. I wrapped my fingers in her hair where I almost touched her skin.
*loud thud*
I shot up straight in bed and looking around the room. "Delilah" I said as I searched for her. I stood up running to the bathroom washing my face multiple times before calming down looking into the mirror. "FUCK" I screamed as I punched the mirror in front of me shattering into pieces leaving me with a bloody hand.
I picked up my phone and dialed the first number I saw, I needed.
"Hello?"
"Delilah"
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-Menahil