poems of a broken girl

#12 Silent

you know
when I don't text
I'm not saying no
don't want contact

the message
I want you to see
is, don't take me for granted
let me see

that you care
that you feel
that you love
me

not texting you
is kinda a test
want to know bout you
how long it takes
till you miss me
and text me

promises dont value
without acting
so I'm just testing
if your words are true

maybe I'm angry
when I go silent
cause I know badly
how time spent
with arguing is worthless

don't argree?
no problem
want to be free?
go ehm

you'll find
better than me
worse than me
but never
someone like me

but if you
wake up
will you
shut up?

when you see
there is no one like me
will you start a compromise?
or otherwhise
you'll be gone
and i'll be done

done listening
to your silly stories
done caring
about your health
done asking
about your day
done sharing with you
my way

when you come back
running into my arms
I'll look back
give you nothing but these arms

the thing I'll keep
from you
is my not existent heart
cause the reason that its gone
is you who was tearing it apart

this time
I'll go silent
because of the time
I need to heal
from the pain
which you caused

so don't be mad
when the reason
I'm not talking anymore
is you