Nanlaki ang mata ni Vincent sa pagkagulat. Hindi niya inalis ang pagkakatitig sa akin. He gently placed my hand in his chest.
"Then let's stop this game. Let's stop pretending like we do not love each other because I can't. My heart beats your name. Let's stop hurting each other C" may namumuong luha sa mga mata niya
Hindi ko mapigilan ang masaktan para kay Vincent. He is a risk taker. Handa siyang isugal ang nararamdaman niya para sa akin. Handa siyang ipagsigawan ito kahit kanino. I know he loves me but I am really scared....
"V, What if..."
"Let's live in the moment C. Stop with your what if's. Give us a chance and I promise to work this out. Let's stop throttling what we can be because of your what if's" masuyo nitong sambit.
I looked into his eyes. Punong puno iyon ng pagsusumamo. I closed my eyes and inhaled a large amount of air.
"Okay" nakangiti kong sagot sa kanya.
Agad na nagliwanag ang mukha niya.
"Okay as in tayo na?? Sinasagot mo na ko??"
I smiled to him and nodded.
"Finally C." He cupped my cheeks and then kissed me tenderly. It was just a quick kiss but enough to make me feel how happy he is.
"I promise not to hurt you. I promise na ihaharap kita sa altar" pangako nito sa akin.
Napakagaan at napakasaya ng puso ko. Sa wakas I'm free. I'm free from keeping this emotion of mine.
Vincent was smiling throughout our way home. Pasimple siyang titngin sa akin sabay ngingiti. Kapag naiipit sa traffic ay kukunin niya ang kamay ko para halikan ang likod ng palad ko.
He is so sweet. Now, I wonder ganito rin ba siya sa mga ex niya?
"Are you also like this with your other girls?" Kuryoso kong tanong
"Of course not. I'm only like this to you because I love you"
I pursed my lips as I heard his last three words. Natural na natural sa kanya na bitawan ang mga salitang iyon
"You don't love your exes?"
"I'm a j*rk, C. I admit that. They want me, my physical aspects, my body, my face, but not the whole me. So, I gave that to them. I'm just being in a relationship with them to stop myself from imposing my feelings to you. Natatakot ako na baka sa kakapilit ko magsawa ka kaya humahanap ako ng ibang babae na pwede kong pagbalingan ng atensyon"
Napanganga ako sa sagot niya
"So you mean you do casual s*x with them?"
Napakamot siya sa may kilay niya at ngumiti.
"Yes pero consensual naman yun noh! Pumapayag sila and I tell them my reason. Everytime na nagkakaroon ako ng karelasyon I tell them that my heart belongs to someone and I can't give it to them only my body" and he smirked to me after telling it.
Magkasalubong ang kilay ko nang marinig ang sinabi niya. Nanggagalaiti ang kalooban ko dahil he did that to other women. I know that he's a womanizer pero ang isipin na ginagawa niya yun sa iba ay tila mas nagpapaliyab sa nararamdaman ko.
Hinatak ko ang kamay kong hawak niya.
"Hey, galit ka?"
"NO!" inis kong sigaw. Tumawa naman siya dahil sa reaksyon ko
"Nagtanong ka sinagot ko" maiksi nitong paliwnag na mas lalong nagpapantig ng tenga ko.
"Do you say 'I love you' to them?"
