Chapter 25
"Are you really stupid ??!" Grace asked sharply. I immediately sent Renz and me to the condo because I knew in myself that I could not be alone. Sophie is missing in action because her husband took her to his business conference abroad.
"What do I do? Hans just called me and even before I said anything he ended things beteen us" I said between sobs
"Just a fool, Mother." Only Renz spoke.
"Bea Alonzo ka jan, Renz" Singit na biro ni Grace. "Just kidding, malamang Ina, yun lang ang sasabihin sayo nung tao. Alam nya sa sarili nya ano magiging desisyon mo. Baka unang Hello mo pa lang alam na nya ano nasa isip mo" Paliwanag ni Grace
"I'm scared" Banat ko
"Matakot ka talagang sira ulo ka. Ilang beses ka na sinaktan nung tao tapos isang "Mahal kita" lang niya lahat na nang desisyon mo sa buhay nabago mo na" Renz qouted the word Mahal Kita in the air just to prove a point
"We are not saying na hindi dapat, at huwag. Pero Ina, hindi lang sa pagmamahal na lang tumatakbo ang buhay mo. You have Calyx, you have a different life outside this country." Grace said. Tahimik lang akong nakikinig sa mga sermon nila. "Well kahit naman anong sabihin namin susundun at susundin mo nasa isip mo" May pairap pang dagdag ni Grace
"You just called us here para suportahan yang nasa isip mo at maginhawaan ang nararamdaman but Ina, this is a realtalk, I don't think Ethan will change" Renz said calmly
Pumikit ako at sumandal na lang sa sofa. I am out of words, hindi ko kayang dipensahan ang sarili ko dahil alam ko, unang tawag pa lang ni Ethan sa pangalan ko ay nakapag desisyon na ako
"Calyx is with him right now?" Tanong ni Grace
"Yes, he's sleeping kaya hindi ko na kinuha kanina" I answered
"Kaya mo ba syang harapin bukas?" She added
"Pahirapan mo, Ina. Don't go throwing yourself at him just because he finally said he loves you." Renz paused but continued after. "Hindi porket sinabi nya yon eh you'll go throwing your arms agad sa kanya. mag isip ka"
"Alam ko naman yon at wala akong balak gawin yon" Inirapan lang ako ni Grace at si Renz naman ay binigyan ako nang tingin na parang di naniniwala
"Matulog ka na. Think about your actions, think about what you would do, think about your kid, and most importantly think about your self." Huling sabi ni Renz bago sila magpaalam ni Grace
Hindi ko alam kung ilang beses akong nagpalit palit nang pwesto sa kama, I can't sleep. I don't evem know what I am thinking. I know people will say I am dumb, well I know I am but after so many years narinig ko kay ethan ang mga salitang matagal ko nang inaasam. How can you blame me?
Kinabukasan nagising na lang ako sa doorbell sa labas nang condo ko. Huminga ako nang malalim dahil alam kong si Ethan at Calyx to.
