Im hurting myself thinking this is good
It hurts so much
But what if i deserve it all
What if there is more?
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I stay up at night
Sleeping feels wrong and guilty
I force my self awake
Thinking I'm having fun for my sake
I eat nothing when i do nothing
I did nothing to deserve it
Thinking this is good I'm finally going on a diet
I mirror everyone's perosonality
Knowing i have to be liked
To love myself
Thinking this is good I'm making my own friends
I force myself to not react to anything
I don't want to over react
And hurt someone's feelings
Thinking this is good I'm not being selfish
Sharing my feelings felt like a burden adding on
They won't understand
Even if i they had it all
Thinking this is good everyone likes the little Miss perfect.
