I have waited all my life
Waited someone to love me
I loved them with all my will
And expected them to love me with the same drill
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Some words can't explain
This loneliness I'm feeling
It's been there forever
Addicted to being lonely
I always hoped I'd find my forever
Tried to find them in everyone i met
I loved everyone the same
Was that the same mistake i always made
I'm dancing alone in my room
With the pillow in my hand
Imagining it to be someone
To not feel like my head is being pointed by a gun
I have my fake scenarios
With the guys i have never met
People say i have high standards
Even when i love anyone who throws a bit of attention over my head
I promised myself to be better than her
Better than who i was before
But...i just wanted some love
I have always been the empathetic one
Someone too nice with a touch of mean words flowing right through my tongue
Can't you see the real me?
The one who is desperately trying to claw out
The one who was always forgotten
The one who cried when her things died
The one who just wanted a simple night
The one who loved to destroy herself
Just to feel the little emotions
After being emptied all the way
