ELIZA
I honestly thought that rue and I could Be something more to each other, I was excited to see her again at school after we were so intimate with each other. I wouldn't have expected to feel so used by her
Right after I was there for her and didn't judge her for who she was.
She told me everyone judged her
which is why i wanted to be the one who could be there for her and see her in a way others didn't because I knew she wasn't a bad person.
Why would she do that to me?
I get it, it's not like we're together, we barely knowing anything about each other, i only knew her for a week or two but we started to grow a connection and I was real and genuine about it but I don't know if rue feels the same I don't know what's going on inside her head.
All I know is that within weeks I started to feel things for her I felt for no one before, it's not like even though I was hurt by what I saw I could just end these feelings Because if feelings worked like that trust me I bet there would be a lot of people moving on a lot quicker.
I know it may seem dumb that I'm harboring these kinds of feelings and thoughts for someone I met not too along ago, people might say it's her ex what do you expect? You can't just move on from your ex but, you shouldn't act like your moved on and jump right in with another person, because it would then feel like you were only using them,
I didn't wanna be someone to use, I just wanted real love.
Why did I think that I'd ever find real love from a drug dealer? Maybe I'm a little foolish. How can Someone who's a mess unable to properly take care of themselves,
Able to love? When they don't know how to love themselves..well sometimes when we fall in love with someone we don't think about things clearly, we just think about how life would be like if we were with that person.
What would my life be like if rue and I were together?
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FanfictionEUPHORIA FF. Rue is still a recovering drug addict and after her break up with Jules she finds a different path for herself, as she struggles to pick herself up from the down fall of her first love there is another new girl (Eliza brown) in town who...
