Hallucinations [HxH story]

1- Unfortunate inconveniences

Gon pov

I walked around york new park, looking around at occurring moments. Kids playing with each other, building snowmans.
Snow falls from the sky looking ever so light, so soft. The children's faces lit up as the snow gently poured on them.
I smile as i look at them enjoying themselves. My smile fades as i move along with my walk. Its been around five years since I've last seen Killua. I still can't believe it either, 5 years? I guess it makes sense, i was 12 when i last saw him. I look up at the grey sky looking just as sad as i was, accompanied by the sound of laughter from the children in the distance. I sigh and continued on with my walk. I felt like something was watching me from a distance. I can't tell which way the pair of eyes were watching from. I look at my surroundings and for a split second i saw white hair, it was gone in a blink of an eye.
Oh man. I miss him. I wish we didn't have to separate.

TW! $elf harm!

I walk to the nearest restroom i could find in the area and walk into a stall. I bring out my trusty blade from my backpack. I roll up my jacket and my sleeves and I cut. Making each one more deeper and deeper. The blood drips into the toilet and i watch as the water turns red. I look back my arm studying it. It looked thin and fragile, i saw tiny veins popped out. How disgusting. I continue to cut until it felt like it was enough. I pull out some bandages and i wrap my arm up. My arm ached with soreness but it was pain well deserved. I put my things away and rolled my sleeve back down. I flush the toilet and i stare at the bloody mess go down the drain. I get out and wash my hands.

(After tw incase you skipped)
I look at myself in the mirror and cringe at my reflection. My eyes no longer seemed like the glimmering amber color it once was. It just looked dirty and sad. My skin looked pale and my hair looked crispy and dirty. My body is skinnier than how a 17 year old body should be. Luckily my concealer covers the dark color of my eyebags, otherwise I'd look sick both mentally and physically. I dry my hands and look at my reflection one last time only to see a dark figure standing behind me. My eyes widen as I held back a scream. I quickly turned around as I see the figure's sharp like hand reaching for my neck. I back away from it hoping it'll stay away but it only got closer. It's hand make it to my neck and as soon as it touched my skin I felt sharp cold pain. I ran out the bathroom before it's hands closed around my neck. I run through the park trying to get as far away as I could from that thing. I look back just to see it chasing me at max speed. Coming closer and closer. In a full panic I run faster completely ignoring the faces people made. I try regulating my breathing while running. The icy air burned to breathe and I was already beginning to give up but I continued. I ran and ran to the point where I made it to down town yorknew. I look back once more just to see it going through the crowds of people. How is that even possible!? More importantly, why aren't people in a panic? As I ran shoving people out the way, bumping into them they shot me dirty, angry looks. I clearly have much bigger problems to take care of instead of stopping and apologizing. I bump into someone but I didn't bother to look at them instead I just ran. I heard a pair of running footsteps.
"Hey stop!! Get your ass back here right now before I beat you!!"

That voice. It's sounded so familiar...
As much as I wanted to turn around I didn't. I heard it getting closer.

"Brother!!! Wait!!!"
That voice. I don't recognize it. Although it feels like someone I've heard, I just can't remember who it is. Suddenly someone kicked me in the back sending me flying and, falling to the ground hitting my head. I dizzily pick myself up from the floor catching my breath. I hear honking cars and I look around to see myself in the middle of the road with a car coming my way. Before I knew it I was pushed out the way with me once again being on the ground. I felt weight on my body, someone's on top of me. I open my eyes and I see the person that was on top of me sit up on the floor then I saw his white hair. He turned to me and his icy sapphire eyes met mines. He takes a good look at me and his eyes widen.
"Gon!? Is that you!?" He got up to his feet and helped me up. My head was throbbing and I was still catching up with my breath. It took awhile for me to realize.