Monokuma x Reader || ONESHOTS

Pain.

! This one shot contains subjects of self harm, suicidal thoughts, suicide, abuse, boderline personality disorder, and serious topics. You have been warned. !

Step by step, day by day. Thats how I viewed this horrible game. Thats they way it is, and thats way it'll always be.

Just take it one day at a time! I was filled to the brim with hope. Even if my class mates left, I kew they were with me.

Monokuma was waiting for me in my dorm. His eyes lit up when he saw me. His arms opened up for me when I entered my dorm. I ran to him and collapsed.

"How are you, my dear?" He kissed my head

"Ah! Im good, I just got done helping Chihiro test a game!" I said smiling

"That sounds fun!" He said

I was worried about him. Monokuma...he hated despair. He hated it more than anything. He wanted nothing more than to see his students thrive. Thats why he was Ultimate Headmaster. But he was under control by someone...and who ever it was made my blood boil. They had brain washed him into doing anything they fucking said. Monokuma fell into a deeper depression every day. I slowly watched the life drain out the person I loved so dearly.

The day he told me what he was feeling broke me. He broke down in front of me.

~FLASHBACK~

"Y/N...I need to tell you something" he said to me

"Hm?"

"Ive...been having bad thoughts...not the kind about hurting others. The ones about hurting myself. I've fallen into this hole, and im drawing in it. Every day is harder and harder to put up with. Every blink sucks the life out of me. I've never hated myself more...I just...I'd be better off dead, wouldn't i? Everyone could be happy and free, if I never existed they'd all be alive...all of them"

My heart dropped. My darling Monokuma was feeling this way? I've known him my whole life...and I've never caught on? I pulled him into my arms.

"You know...sometimes I feel that way. Sometimes I feel like the world is always against me, but then...I remember the people who love me. The ones cheering me on. Monokuma, as long as I'm here...you're never alone. You are never going to experience pain by yourself" he smiled weakly at my words. He wiped tears from his eyes.

"Im...im sorry Y/N, I shouldn't involve you. Don't worry about me! Im...okay" he said. My stomach turned at his lies. I wanted to pull him out of what ever awful feelings he was having. When I looked at him, I knew his truth. I knew the hopeful boy inside of him. Monokuma doesn't want any one to be hurt, let alone by him.

~MONOKUMA POV~

I walked away from Y/Ns dorm and to my room. Junko wasn't there luckily and I walked to my bathroom. I couldn't handle the pain any longer. I punched at the sink and cried. I was weak. I was so...so weak. I wanted to give in to the pain. I wanted to leave this God awful earth. But I can't leave Y/N...I have to stay strong. No matter what, I will stay for them.

I looked at my arms. I couldn't handle the pain i scratched at them anxiously. I watched the skin slowly come off. Blood painting my finger tips. I bashed my head against the back wall and cried out in pain. I could take it any longer. I couldn't do it. The overthinking, the jealousy when they hang out with others. The abuse i face from Junko...the person I viewed as my saviour... I couldnt...u cant...I can't do it!

~Y/N POV~

It was the next day...Monokuma hadnt woken me up so I went to his room.

"Knock knock!" I said knocking and opening the door.

...

No

No

Nonononono

Monokuma

No

No please

You can't

You're not

My monokuma

Hes...

He was laid on the floor with an empty pill bottle. My darling...my sweet Monokuma...he was gone...

I grasped my hair and fell to the floor. I hurled vomit at the site. I cried out and ran away.

~end of flashback~

So thats why im here, writing this note...writing this note before I leave to be with him again. Im currently waiting for the drugs to kick in. I'll be knocked out any second now. I won't wake up.

So just know. Sometimes happy thoughts don't help with the bad thoughts.

I love you Monok————