Dream land

Lockdown day 6

The last thing I remembered last night was falling asleep leaning on Anthony and someone carrying me inside. As soon as I got up this morning I felt like wanting to cry again, but I couldn't it was as if I had been all cried out. I went to the bathroom and had a quick shower to make me feel better, it didn't help that much but it was refreshing.

I went straight back into my room, I didn't want to have to see my parents like that again, so I was going to try stay home today if I could. I decided that I didn't want to leave my room at all, even to get breakfast, if I left my room someone could see me and I just wanted to be alone right now.

Apparently that didn't work, at around 11am I heard the door creak open, my light was on so it was kind of obvious I was awake. It was Emmy, I guessed that the others had press today for different things.

"Hey J, you ok?" She asked me, sitting down beside me and giving me a hug.

"I guess, I just don't want anything to happen to them you know," I said looking down at my hands fiddling.

"Do you want to go see them today?" Emmy asked.

"I kinda wanna stay home today, I don't want to see them like that again right now," I felt tears coming into my eyes, and I couldn't hold them back. I started crying into Emmy's shoulder, I felt weird about it but she was there supporting me.

"Do you wanna watch something, the others are doing press right now so they can't join us?"

"Um sure, would it be weird if we watch umbrella academy? I just know it really well and its kinda comforting." I said, I knew some actors really didn't like watching themselves so I thought I had to ask first.

"Oh yeah we can definitely watch it, you know you and the younger cast would probably get along really well." She laughed, I smiled thinking 'if I ever met one of them that would be so cool'.

We got decently far into the first season, I really wanted to get to season 2 because that was my favourite one but I knew that wouldn't be happening in one day. At around 1pm we went out and got some lunch, I could hear Daveed and Jazzy on zoom but I wasn't sure what Anthony was doing as we walked out.

Anthony was just sitting on the couch, I didn't know why he didn't join us but he was just there. As soon as he saw us he got up and engulfed me in a hug, he came back into my room with us to watch the show. I didn't think that he had actually watched it before with all his reactions, I didn't know if I should be watching the TV or Anthony.

Just as we finished the fourth episode Jazzy and Daveed came in, having finished their press for the day.

"Oh cool, we watching Em now!" Daveed said and sat between Emmy and I, giving her a kiss and me a hug. Jazzy sat next to Anthony on the couch and we all continued watching.

It was getting closer to the time my parents would be home normally and it felt weird knowing that they wouldn't be home. I was snuggled into Daveed, leaning my head on his shoulder when he finally asked the question I had been asking myself all day.

"J, do you want to see your parents for a bit? I know it's hard to be there but I feel like you should see them, even if it is just to say goodnight, we don't have to stay there long at all." He said, shifting his body to look at me.

"I know I should, but it's just too hard seeing them like that. Once we get there I know I won't want to leave them. I feel like it makes me seem like a bad person, like I do want to see them but-" I started crying again, I felt terrible for not wanting to see my parents but I knew I couldn't.

"Jess, look at me, if you want to see them the four of us will be with you no matter what. And we will stay there as long as you like even if it is just for a few minutes or hours. Ok?" Daveed said and gave me a hug, the rest of them joined in quickly.

All I could do was nod, he was right I needed to do this. Soon after we separated we all got ready to go and I fed the dogs so it would be done when we come back later. This time we weren't all squished into the middle row, I was sitting next to Anthony in the middle, Daveed was driving with Jazzy next to him and Emmy was in the back.

Even before we got inside the hospital I froze up. I wouldn't get out of the car, I didn't want to see my parents lying in their beds lifeless. Anthony ended up pulling me out from his side and had to push me inside.

They were all looking at me worried, and looking at Daveed annoyed that he had made me do something I was not comfortable with. I was already crying by the time we reached their room, Daveed stayed right next to me like he promised the whole time. I told my parents everything I did today, it was nice to see them even though I didn't know if they were aware of anything going on or not.

We had been at the hospital for about two hours and I started to get really tired and I could tell the others were as well, Jazzy and Anthony had fallen asleep in their chairs and Emmy was asleep leaning against Daveed who was still awake. I leaned over onto Daveed and slowly drifted off into sleep.

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DAVEED'S POV

We had been here for a while now, everyone besides Jess and I were asleep, or so I thought. Next thing I knew Jess was leaning over into me and had fallen asleep as well. I took this opportunity to also have some sleep with both Emmy and Jess in my arms. I woke up around 7pm, Jess was still asleep in my arms but Emmy, Jazzy and Ant were no where to be seen.

I checked my phone and saw a message from Em;

(❤️Emmy❤️) -Hey so I took Ant and Jas home, I'll come back to pick u and J up soon -didn't wanna wake u up

*we gonna pretend there's a photo here of the 3 of them lmao*

The photo was really cute, I guessed that Anthony or Jazzy took it. I immediately set it as my wallpaper. Jess started to wake up since I was moving a bit, I thought she must be a light sleeper.

"Hey J," I said as she sat up in her seat.

"Hey, what time is it?" She asked me.

(a/n SHOWTIME)

"Its 7:05, we are gonna go soon. Emmy took the others home while we were asleep and she should be back soon to pick us up." I told her "do you wanna say bye to your parents and then we can meet her outside."

Jess nodded and gave a kiss goodbye to both of her parents. Emmy called me to say she was almost here while we were outside waiting. Once she picked us up Jess was in the backseat and I was next to Emmy in the car, finally Jess was in a better mood since this whole thing happened so we listened to some music and sung/rapped the whole car ride.

Ant and Jazzy were already in bed when we got home, I didn't know if they were just there or if they were asleep so I didn't bother them. The three of us had some leftovers for dinner, I had been tucking Jess into bed for the past few nights because I didn't want to leave her but tonight she said something I was not expecting at all.

"Hey Dav, I know you'll have to go back at some point but please don't leave me by myself, without my parents back." I saw tears coming into her eyes as she said that.

"J, I will never leave you, trust me. Ok so we all have press in the morning but we will all come check on you when we are done or have a break. It's the last week of term so you don't have to do school tomorrow if you aren't up for it yet, but I want you to message or call one of your friends like Lia or someone." I kissed her on the forehead and got up to leave.

"Thanks for being here for me Dav." Jess said quietly, slowly drifting off to sleep.

"Love you J" I whispered so she wouldn't hear me and left the room.