Dream land

Lockdown, day 11

(and this is where I started loosing motivation and inspiration lmao)

I knew today would be crazy, I was not looking forward to it at all. We were going to be organising the funeral and also trying to get me American citizenship or at least a visa, while everyone still doing press in the mornings and me still not being happy.

I felt better this morning, I thought that I just needed a good cry by myself like I did last night and that slightly worked. Everyone had some sort of press today so Jazzy and Daveed were in my room again for blindspotting, Emmy was in her room for TUA and Anthony was in his for ITH.

I wasn't in much of a mood to do anything so I was just going on my phone and reading while it was going on, I could see Daveed and Jazzy glancing at me every few minutes to see if I was ok, it was nice but wasn't very needed.

The Hamilchat was going crazy because apparently Emmy told the girls how her and Daveed are going to be fostering me.

~revolution~

(Ne Ne) CHILD WHEN WERE U GONNA TELL US

(Me) Huh?

(BuUrRnN) EMMY AND DAVEED R FOSTERING YOU?!?!

(Me) Oh yh I forgot to tell u guys sorry lol

(LMM) WAIT WHAT WHEN HOW???

(BeEnNyY) omg congrats Jess!

(Cookies) Whenever u guys come back I'm bringing u all cookies!

(LMM) Don't mind me just dying over here

(LMM) Anthony can literally see me reacting

(I heard a rumour) Sorry Jess lmao

(Me) Thanks guys

I loved how I was going to have Emmy and Daveed fostering me when we go back to LA but I wasn't ready to replace my actual parents. Apparently my change of mood was obvious to Daveed and Jazzy because they both had concerned looks on their faces.

Soon enough the interview was over and Daveed came and sat next to me and gave me a hug. I knew he saw that everyone was going crazy on the hamilchat and I was almost sure he thought I was being a bit overwhelmed.

"You ok J?" Daveed asked.

"Yeah, just it's a lot," I replied simply.

"I'm always here if you need," He gave me a gentle squeeze and we were ready for the rest of the day.

The funeral was going to be Wednesday next week and Daveed was helping me plan it because I didn't know what to do and it was a bit overwhelming. By 1 pm we had everything figured out, and I only had 1 meltdown. Luckily Daveed helped me through it though.

Everyone was done press by then so we all went to the park because it wasn't raining today, it was nice and they all were talking so I didn't have to. We just stayed out there for two hours until everyone realised we had to try get me to live in America legally so we went back inside to start on that.

(a/n Idk what the process is at all so...)

I wasn't sure what to do but everyone was asking different people so I went back to my room to just relax and hopefully not worry about anything. I could hear Anthony on the phone to Lin's wife Vanessa because she is a lawyer but that was all that I knew for sure.

I stayed in there for a while by myself, going between watching Netflix and doing some Dear Evan Hansen therapy whenever I felt like I was gonna have a breakdown. It was almost 5:00pm so I left to see what was going on outside.

A few of them were still on calls and they all had some sort of device out. Daveed and Emmy had taken charge of it so Anthony and Jazzy were just working on a few things, I was assuming new songs, on the couch.

I sat next to Jazzy on the couch and leaned into her for comfort, luckily she didn't seem to mind at all and kept going. I took my phone out and was going through instagram and twitter, just trying to take my mind off of everything going on.

By 5:30 we had all finally managed to get me to live in America legally, we still weren't sure when this would be but hopefully not too soon, just so I have time to adjust. I fed the dogs quickly, and we all had dinner soon after.

It was a decently chaotic day today, and was a bit overwhelming after only just loosing my parents. But I am getting better and having all of them here helping me is amazing. I knew that tomorrow I would have to tell my friends that I am moving, which would be hard but I hoped that nothing would change between us.

I do have like half a chapter after this that I didn't finish but I don't think its actually needed so I'm gonna leave it there lmao. Hope you all enjoyed this, unless I somehow get more inspiration for this, or if u all want me to put my random little one shots for like a year after this is set comment and I might add it after this chpt.

BYEEE