Nudes

Epilogue

Six months ago, I found out my best friend died.

Nothing was the same.

My best friend had died and a piece of me died with them.

My mother made me attend the funeral and speak a few words, even though I didn't even want to get out of bed. Crying all day just made it seem easier than actually doing anything.

Honestly, I was about to commit suicide myself. I had the pills ready and everything. I even wrote the note...but that's when my phone rang. 

Whoever was on the other line announced that Calum Hood took his own life.

Hey,

I have never wrote one of these before, so I don't know how to start this. I Googled some but those letters weren't for me.

Mom

Please don't blame yourself. I did some bad things in my life. I really don't want to explain right now. I'm sorry. You still have Mali, of course. Take care of her. I don't want her crying when I'm gone. She's too strong for that shit. Bye, mom. I love you.

Dad

Fuck you.

Mali

Hey, fucker. Stay safe. I know you need your crazy ass brother around to protect you from the real world, but I can't do that right now. I'm not stable enough. How am I suppose to protect someone else when I can't protect myself? Be careful out there, baby girl. I love you. Goodbye.

Evelyn

I can't believe I'm leaving without saying this but, I love you. I fell for you the day you kicked me out of your car. I never told you because I didn't want to lose you. I also never told you that I have bipolar depression. I have been seeing help for it but at this point, I don't know if I'm getting any better. I feel like shit because you tell me everything and I kept the most important things from you. I'm sorry for breaking our promise...that I will never leave you. I am, though, and I'm sorry. You were one of the best people I've met in my while entire life and I'm so thankful you gave me a chance to make things right. I understand if you're mad at me and if you kick me in the balls for doing this. Don't kill yourself over me because I'm not worth it. Live your life and, please, get better. I love you. Goodbye, Evelyn.

I'll see you all again one day. 

Don't forget about me.

Aloha,

Calum Hood

Calum never visited his parents in Hawaii. He actually planned his suicide.

His death really fucked me up. I haven't been the same since.

I lost two of the most important people in my life in the same day.

I stay in a mental hospital now. I haven't see Charisma in a while, but I've met someone new.

They diagnosed me with schizophrenia. I just see and hear things that aren't there.

I have seven more months here, then they let me go. I'm not getting any better, though. I know that because I'm never alone.

Just like Charisma said.

When I'm out of here, I'm moving to Washington with my dad's new family.

My mother doesn't want me home again. She thinks it would be good if she had a fresh start.

"Good morning, Evelyn. You're being evaluated to see if you are ready to leave or not." My normal nurse, Candace, calls.

Candace has been sweet to me. She talks to me like she knows what I'm going through and she always takes care of me.

"You guys keep wasting your time." I say as I walk into the white, cold room.

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that's it, guys. i don't know if i will make a sequel or not, but i'll think about it.

i'm writing other books for sure.

thanks for everything guys. xx

~mikayla