Forbidden Love {Sterek} Book 2

Chapter 4: His pain

STILES POV:
The next morning I wake up. Dereks not in bed but there is a note.

I grab it

Stiles. They got close I left last night because I didn't want you upset. I'll be back eventually. No idea when but it shouldn't take more than 2 years. Honestly I'm hoping I'm back much sooner. I'm keeping my promise. Where I'm going I won't have service so you probably won't hear from me in a while. But I love you. Go do your training make me proud. When I get back we will work on your speech. I love you so much- Der.

Tears fill my eyes and I sigh.

A year and a half passes. I'm transferred down here. I've been in the field and I seen shit I wish I never got to see. I'm walking to the loft. Upset because I always am. I always come home and be alone because Derek isn't back yet. Not mention I hate how he up and left me and left a note. He also said a while he won't be able to talk to me he never said the whole damn time. So I'm heart broken and I'm pissed with him.

I'm in charge of the pack. Everything is exhausting. Theo has come back to town tho. He left when we were kids. Me, him and Scott were best friends. He had a crush on me still does. Scott helped teach me control and my senses. But it's been a real long day. I walk into the kitchen grabbing the bottle of fox's glove whiskey and pour it in the glass. I sit down at Derek's desk. I made it my own. I sip the whiskey before burying my face in my arms on the desk.

I'm a little bit buffer still very very much smaller than Derek but much more than I was.

I go shower before cleaning up and ordering dinner as the pack shows up.

We are eating sitting on the floor. I'm drinking and we are all watching tv and laughing. Theo pretty much all over me but I ignore him.

Then all of a sudden the door opens and I watch Derek, Peter, Cora, Brayden and 3 others walk in.

The room falls silent and Derek just watches me. He can see how things changed on me. I look at Brayden then at him. He doesn't like the fact theo is all over me.

He stays quiet. So do I. Until Cora looks at Derek "you two done?"

"Cora enough." Derek says I look at the pack

"you guys should wind down get ready for bed." I say getting up walking to the kitchen which Derek, theo and Brayden follow. I pour myself another glass and he sighs

"You could talk."

"I've been able to since before you left wanted to surprise you but I suppose I missed my shot." I say looking at him holding back tears

"You moved on?" He whispers

"Nope that's theo. Use to go to school with him he has a crush on me but he is rip off version of you and I thought nah I'm good."

Derek nods gently "you brought Brayden back here tho... I shouldn't really be surprised... don't worry Brayden I won't be around here much longer. Looks like he just can't make up his mind." I mutter walking upstairs

Derek walks over to Scott "what the hell happened to him."

"You leaving did."

"W-what."

"After you left he was in so much pain he tried to end it. He didn't think you would keep your promise and it seems he was right. He is in charge of the pack now. When we aren't here he is alone. He is an FBI agent so you have to take a guess and say he seen some bad shit Derek. You being gone no word to him for a year and a half it all got to him over time."

Tears fill Derek's eyes.... Scott whispers in his ear "Not to mention your guys stupidity not using a shot before you left he had a miscarriage."
Scott pats the back of his shoulder walking away

I'm in Derek's room folding some clothes so I can start packing my stuff. I watch him enter the room and look at him tiredly before away.

"I brought her back that doesn't mean I'm cheating. That doesn't mean I ever have while I was gone."

"I'm not the same person you fell in love with Derek."

"Yes you are don't you dare say that."

"I'm not I've changed and you fucking noticed it the moment you walked in that door."

"Your right you did change but your still the man I love."

"How can you say that."

"Because the way you act won't change that."

I scoff and curl up and he holds me "I didn't know we didn't use a shot... I should have been here to help you with that loss and I'm sorry I wasn't. I'm sorry for the way I left. I'm so sorry baby." I curl into him crying gripping his t shirt and he pulls me into his lap kissing my head. I eventually calm down and he kisses me. I kiss back because he is sorry for what he did and I love him.

I lay on his chest exhausted as he runs his fingers up and down my spine.

I take in his scent. His scent that I missed so much. "Who are the other people?"

"Deucalion made a deal. If he dies my mom would be brought back. The other two are my siblings I didn't know were still alive."

"W-wait are you still the alp-"

"I always will be because I found my mate stiles and that is you. Once an alpha finds their mate they can't lose their title... it's because in each family in each pack there needs to at least be one alpha."

I nod gently resting my head back on his chest.