Forbidden Love {Sterek} Book 2

Chapter 2: Keeping Secrets

DEREKS POV:

2 weeks had passed and we haven't tried yet so stiles is sitting on the couch we are home alone. I place my hand on his throat taking the pain.

"Let's start with your name huh?"

He just nods tears in his eyes

"S-s... St... st." He starts getting agitated and I smile

"you're doing good keep going."

"Sss... ssst.... Ssssst....sttt..."

He shakes his head crying and I sit next to him pulling him into my lap holding his throat. "We are in this together."

"Ssstttt..I....iii.....Ssssstttiii..."

I smile "yeah Sti... come on let's finish it... say iles."

"Sssttii... llll."

I smile slightly

"Sstttiiilll.... Es..... ssst-tiles.... Ssttiillees....Stiles."

I smile big "that's it baby see!" I say excitedly and he is smiling tears in his eyes. I lean down kissing him gently. He kisses back

I smile cupping his face but I'm not holding his throat anymore he is. He doesn't wanna stop. "D-d... ddd... ddeee... dddeerrrr... ddd.. eerrr..." I smile as as tears run down my face and I nod.

"D-derrr...dderreeee... dddeerr... ek.... Ddeerreekk..d-derek."

"Yeah baby that's my name." I smile against his lips as my tears run down my face. He kisses me and I kiss him gently. I whisper "I'm so proud of you."

He smiles big and looks up at me. His hope is back and that makes me happy. My phone rings and I kiss him gently before getting up walking answering it.

STILES POV:

It's not like I can make noise. There should be no reason every time he answers the phone he needs to leave the room. He knows I'm not good with my sense yet so I can't hear him... so the fact that whatever he needs to keep leaving the room for so I can't hear bothers me. Im his boyfriend he shouldn't need to hide anything from me.

Tears fill my eyes. I grab my keys and I walk out he watches worriedly. "Stiles wait!... I'll call you back." He hangs up trying to chase after me but I'm already in my jeep pulling out.

He texts me and I leave him on read. He FaceTimes me and I ignore it.

I go Scott's house and text Lydia because I already know Scott and Isaac are there and Lydia will bring Allison.

I already texted Scott so he has a heads up once there I have my iPad. We all go to his room and sit on his bed. Derek keeps blowing up my phone they all notice but I turn it on silent tossing it behind me.

"Stiles did something happen?" Lydia asks and I shrug writing on my iPad

I don't know.

Isaac secretly texts Derek that I'm here on his phone.

"What do you mean you don't know." Scott says

Is it wrong of me to feel he is hiding something.

"Like what" Allison asks and I sigh

It's not like I can talk and interrupt him anymore, but any phone call even you guys or whoever the hell he has been talking to. Which is the thing I don't know who they are ... he feels the need to leave the room so I can't hear him. When I walk by and see him on the phone he seems pretty happy too... but that's besides the fact. I don't see why he needs hide phone calls or anything from me.

"Why not ask him who he is talking to?" Scott says and I have no idea Derek is behind me in the door way so he can see what I write over my shoulder.

I'm scared of him lying to me.

"Well I mean it's his business." Isaac says and I shake my head.

That's not it Isaac! I get it trust issues I have those too but I trust him. He says he trusts me.. but it's also the yelling. I relapsed and Derek yelled I'm not upset about the yelling that is who he is. It's the fact that if I confront him it will only backfire. Also the fact I feel what Damon said was true. I took the lock off my phone the 4th month we been together he can go through mine whenever he wants I have no complains about it. But his he keeps locked.

Tears run down my face "maybe he doesn't want you worrying." Isaac says and Lydia smacks his arm

That should be my choice. I didn't know a relationship was one person not two... with their emotions.

Lydia glares daggers at Derek who is as upset as me

"I don't think it's like that stiles." Lydia says

Then why leave the room? Am I annoying when silent too?

"No stiles your not." Allison says and Scott sighs

"Listen maybe you should talk to him about it."

I can't.

"Why not?" Allison says and I rub my forehead

Because of my thoughts... I have no voice no more I zone out more and It's just me and my thoughts.

"Maybe your worrying because your not always fully here to see the story?" Scott asks

Maybe I don't wanna be Scotty. Maybe I wanna be in a ditch somewhere.

"How long have you been off your antidepressants?" Lydia asks and I quickly look at her

How do you know.

"Me and Lydia grew up with you stiles. We know... the real question is does Derek know?"

I shake my head I've been flushing them.

Tears run down his face

"Why?" Allison asks touching my hand I move it away

I feel that personality is forced upon me and it's just a pill to make me happy then show what I'm truly feeling.

"How long have you been feeling like that?" Isaac asks because he is also on them

5 months ago

"Your dosage wasn't working stiles... they need to up it." Isaac says

No no more pills you don't understand! That isn't what this is about I don't want the conversation here.

Lydia holds me. She looks back at Derek

I catch her looking back. I turn around and tears fill my eyes I'm shaking and he walks over "stiles." I run out of the room past him shaking my head. I lock myself in the bathroom. He sighs walking towards the bathroom door sitting against it.

Lydia hands him my phone and he nods gently