Forbidden Love {Sterek} Book 2

Chapter 6: Impact

DEREKS POV:

I'm at the loft drinking heavily. Boyd's body on the other couch. Just me, Erica, Scott, Erica, mom, Cora, and my other two siblings. Everyone else not here and not know besides Liam who isn't here. Brayden is also here watching me carefully.

My phone rings it's currently 1:12. I look at it. It's stiles but I ignore it. When it rings again Cora answers it walking out of the room.

"Derek why didn't you-"

"It's not Derek."

"Cora..uh hey is Derek ok... why didn't he answer?"

"He isn't ok right now."

"W-what is that suppose to mean."

"Just finish work."

"I'm on break.. I'm stopping by the loft." He hangs up.

Cora walks back in sighing. "He is on his way."

"You told him?!" I yell at her.

"He is on lunch break and no I didn't." She says throwing my phone at me. I finish my glass setting it down running my hands through my hair. This is gonna effect him having been in charge the last year. 5 minutes later I hear his jeep pull up and I'm on a new glass of whiskey with wolfsbane.

I hear him outside the door. He slides it open and sees Boyd. "No what happened?! Boyd?!" He screams running towards him. I set my glass down stopping him.

"He is dead." I whisper still covered in blood. He looks at me and I'm clearly not ok. It effects stiles but not as much as me since he was my beta. He sees the blood and sniffles.

"Are you ok are you bleeding?"

"Bleeding? No. Ok? Far from it."

He hugs me tightly burying his face in my chest I rub his back holding him crying. We go upstairs he helps me calm down although it will be silently hurting us both. I watch him walk into the bathroom starting the bath and getting towels. He walks out going into our closet and he grabs me jeans and my green t shirt "come on baby." He says as he walks to my dresser grabbing boxers setting them on the bed I sigh getting up and I walk into the bathroom following him I strip and get in the tub he sits on the ground outside it. He grabs my hand holding it. Looking me in my eyes.

"Listen we got through worse together. We can can get through this." He says and I smile sadly.

I kiss his hand before resting my head against the back of the tub exhausted.

"Stop blaming yourself Derek."

"I can't."

"Why baby."

"Because Erica called me screaming for me to help... just for me to get there and I couldn't do anything."

"Derek no one could have."

"I should have been there and prevented this."

"So I could have lost you?"

I scoff sad and roll my eyes as tears fill them. "He was scared stiles."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean he wasn't dead when I got there... He said he was scared but everything will be ok... He already lost so much blood and with the wolfsbane there was no saving him. I pulled the arrow out I took his life."

"You ended his suffering Derek."

"He was my kid Stiles."

"He was mine to." Stiles sniffles "and this is going to impact us both for a while Derek. But we have each other."

"He said he forgives me."

Stiles watches my face because he knows that broke me. Stiles pulls my head towards his chest holding me as he sits outside the tub. He kisses my head and I grip his shirt.

"Shhh I got ya der." He rubs my back.

"Everything keeps going wrong."

"What do you mean?"

"What I did to you, mom, how you get so scared half the time... Boyd. Just everything."

"Half of that isn't your fault der."

"Yeah well I feel it is."

"After your bath you need to rest." He says standing up and I look at him.

"Where are you going?" I whisper

"Our room I need to call work."

"I'll be fine just go back."

"With you like this and my son dead no." With that he walks back to our room

"FBI head quarters California."

"It's agent Stilinski 0240"

"Hey Stiles what's up."

"I'm gonna need the rest of the day off... there was a family emergency and my adoptive son died... he didn't make it."

"Shit I'm so sorry to hear that... do you want me to just put you on leave for the rest of the week."

"Can you please that would be great."

"Yeah of course I'm sorry for loss."

"Thank you." He hangs up but I just stare at the faucet zoning out into my thoughts. Not knowing stiles is back in here. I'm blaming myself for his job now.

"Derek?... Derek?!... Derek!"

"What sorry."

"What were you thinking about now."

"Nothing I'm fine."

"Yeah right sure seems it." He sighs. I get cleaned and we go to bed

STILES POV:

Once he is out. I shower and get changed. I go downstairs having called a pack meeting but before hand having Cora go with Talia knowing she is an alpha to deal with Boyd's body.

They all know by now and they also know to be quiet. We talk about the hunters when mid meeting Derek comes downstairs dressed. He sees me discussing the meeting when everyone looks up at him on the steps and that causes me to stop and turn around. I look at Derek who looks upset especially with me. "Guys go watch tv and eat." I say before walking over to him. I go to cup his face but he moves slightly not wanting me to touch him.

"I'm sorry ok."

He just walks past me to the bookshelf silently. I watch him. I hate when he won't talk to me because it reminds me of when I wanted to talk to him but I couldn't because I was mute.