Forbidden Love {Sterek} Book 2

Chapter 12: Still

DEREKS POV:

We are in my bed and I'm feeling better. He is asleep with a fresh claim on him it's been a week since the phone incident and I've been quiet. He has unpacked. I can't help but wonder why theo. He is awake on his instagram. I look over at him and he looks at me. I'm on my back. Hands on my stomach. My head turn towards him. As he is next to me on his stomach. Forearms against the bed as he scrolls through Insta. His legs crossed flat on the bed behind him.

He looks at me "you ok Derek?"

I nod gently lying he can tell. He locks his phone sliding it aside. He moves closer cupping my face kissing me. I let my arm come up and rub his arm gently.

"You don't need to lie to me."He whispers before pressing his forehead against mine and I look back away towards the ceiling. "Derek?"

"Hmm?"

"What's on your mind."

"Nothing I'm fine."

"Can you not do that please."

"Do what?"

"That. Shutting me out." Tears fill his eyes "did I do something?" He asks scared and I quickly look at him

"No you didn't do anything. It's not you."

"It's somebody tho?"

"I'm just confused ok." I say standing up getting dressed. I walk downstairs.

He quickly does the same thing following me. He walks over to me touching my arm and I just move it away backing up.

"Der..."

I shake my head. "I'm sorry just..." I sigh "not right now please."

"I ... ok." He whispers looking down

"Don't do that this isn't your fault ok.... It's just... personal."

"Personal?.... I thought we were personal no secrets."

"Stiles stop it please."

"I just wanna help."

"You can't!" I sigh "I'm sorry I didn't mean to."

"No it's fine." He whispers and I watch him walk over and sit on the couch. I grab my phone putting a lock on it.

The last talk we had we started rebuilding our trust. "I'm gonna go out."

"Ok." He whispers.

"I love you."

"I love you too."

I walk out... I go to the woods.

Ignore his calls and texts for a week. I just stay in the woods in the old hale house thinking. He is freaking out thinking something happened to me because I didn't even say goodbye this time.

I eventually managed to courage to come back. I walk in quietly. The room falls silent as the whole pack is there. I look a little dirty I was breaking and killing things so the dry blood scares stiles. Stiles quickly stands up. He runs over to me and goes to hug me but I put my hand to his chest and shake my head. "Derek what is it... I hate this just tell me please." He whispers scared and Cora knows exactly what this is. Tears fill her eyes. Stiles sighs turning around. He sees Cora

"Your upset why."

"I'm fine."

"No you know what this is!"

"Stiles enough." I mutter.

He looks at me "No." he looks back at Cora "Tell me what is wrong with him."

"Oh my god shut up stiles." Theo had the balls to speak and I glare at him

"Don't you dare talk to him like that."

Peter whispers "shit." Stiles quickly looks at me seeing what this is about now and stiles puts his hand on my chest "Der it's fine."

"You should really watch your dog." Theo sighs

My eyes go red "you should really watch your fucking mouth." I say gripping his throat and a full blown fist fight breaks out. I'm in protective mode I can't break this.

That's before the bottle of foxglove whiskey on the table gets smashed and slices stiles arm from ricochet.

"OW! Derek stop it!" He screams crying as Melissa tends to his arm. My nails are slightly in his throat when I look over seeing stiles. His blood filling my nostrils. Tears fill my eyes and I put theo down backing up.

I look at him as he falls to the ground laughing. I look at stiles. Before Cora touches my chest. "Derek breathe."

"I can't." I whisper

Stiles walks over holding the towel on his arm. "Hey look at me." He says as I look down. He cups my cheek pressing my forehead against his. I close my eyes tightly, gripping his good arm gently.

He looks at me "Derek what is going on?" I shake my head backing up. "Woah woah woah ok Derek breathe... can you guys go out for food please help theo." They do as told quickly emptying the loft.
I walk away going upstairs. Stiles follows after me.

I sit on the bed and he sits beside me. "I didn't mean to hurt you I'm sorry." I whisper and he looks at me and smiles gently.

"I know you didn't-"

"I still did. I was being an idiot."

"Yeah well your my idiot so you get a pass... but I need to know what the hell has been bothering you? Why disappear on me like that Derek."

"It's nothing I'm fine."

"Yeah well I know your lying and trying to shut me out so sorry love that's isn't gonna happen."

I sigh "it's because of Theo... I get it he has a crush but I don't like how he is so close. It feels threatening. I don't know what you see in him."

"You're still scared of me cheating?"

"I'm scared of him."

"Derek..."

"See why I didn't want to tell you."

"I don't love him... I love you... what I see in him... was and old Walmart budget version of you. I see a lost 18 year old that needs a family... we can be his family."

"You see me tho."

"Yes I see you but my love for him isn't there...it's for you and only you. Plus he is a trashy version of you so why would I give up the better and" he smirks "bigger version anyway."

I chuckle gently and sniffle. I pull him onto my lap. I look at his cut. "I'm fine."

"I still did it."

"On accident"