Forbidden Love {Sterek} Book 2

Chapter 13: sickness

STILES POV:

Derek is asleep under me as I lay on his chest. I don't feel good. I feel nauseous. I quickly get up booking it into the bathroom somehow not waking him thankfully. I throw up shaking scared. I don't know what's wrong with me. I eventually stop and clean myself up. I go downstairs and I call Melissa... dads sleeping he worked all night and I need a mom right now.

I'm crying. "Hey stiles what's wrong."

"I just I don't know it's not possible. I can't get sick and I don't feel good and I'm scared."

"Shhh breathe honey tell me what's wrong."

"Can you just come over please." I cry.

"Of course hun." With that she hangs up. I pace the room. Derek walks downstairs now worried

"Hey what's wrong."

I look him in the eyes as tears run down my face "I'm fine."

"Ok right... what's wrong." He says walking over wrapping his arms around me.

"I don't need you worrying." I whisper

"I rather worry with you than you on your own."

"I just I don't feel good... I feel Nauseous and I already threw up once."

"Are you stressed why didn't you wake me?"

"I don't know but Derek I'm not suppose to get sick."

"Yeah you are stiles your not a wolf your a fox."

"But not like this... not this bad."

"You don't need to be sick to throw up babe stress, anxiety anything could make you throw up."

I just nod gently Derek holds me on the couch until Melissa walks in and he looks over

"Melissa what are you-"

"I called her before you woke up."

He nods gently watching me worried now. I get up walking over sitting at the kitchen counter. Derek hovers over me. "Go for a run. I'll tell you after Derek. I don't want to be hovered over right now... please."

He nods gently and kisses my cheek I smile slightly. I watch him leave. Melissa doesn't have an single idea until she sighs sitting next to me.

"You been taking your shots right?"

I nod gently "yeah." I say getting up opening my case of them to see Fridays still in there and I freeze. I forgot to take last Friday and tomorrow I should be taking my next one.. so I've been off birth control for almost 2 weeks. I look at Melissa... I thought I took it. There is fear in my eyes... I already lost a child... can I even try to do this again and if so can I tell Derek?

"I-I need a test."

She nods I watch her leave. I'm terrified... I can't do this again. Im 19 turning 20 next month... not even engaged yet. Not to mention me and Derek are still trying to fix us... plus the loft isn't suitable for a baby.

15 minutes pass and Melissa walks in she hands me the box. I go into the bathroom taking a test out of the box. I read the back of the box following them before setting the test on the counter discarding the box. I close the toilet lid and sit on the toilet. My phone rings and I jump before answering it.

"Hey handsome." I smile gently tears in my eyes

"Hi baby." I whisper

"How are you feeling."

"Anxious still."

"It's ok... what's wrong did Melissa say?"

"She thinks it's just my nerves."

"Told you... I'm on my way home want me to stop and get you food."

"Please."

"Of course baby."

"I love you."

"I love you too I'll be home in twenty."

He hangs up and I watch the last bar in the pregnancy test finish. I grab it. It's positive. Tears run down my face I cry in their for five minutes I compose myself and clean myself up walking out I show Melissa the test she frowns slightly knowing what I went through last time. "Are you going to tell him."

"I want to but what if he leaves again? He won't forgive himself... he doesn't for the first time."

"I have no idea but I have a feeling you will decide what's best but I have to go call me if you need me?" I nod gently and hug her

"thanks mom." She smiles slightly

"you're welcome hun."

She leaves and I throw up again before cleaning myself up. I hide the test before I go sit in the living room scared. Derek walks in with food I watch him bring my food over and sit next to me. He pulls me in his lap and I cry into his chest. He knows something is wrong but he thinks it's just my emotions so he holds me.

"I got you." He whispers rubbing my back and I sniffle slowly calming down I bury my face in his neck.

"Can you promise you won't leave?"

"I can promise that if I leave it won't be my choice."

"What does that mean."

"It means if I have to leave to save you I'll leave but if not I'm not going anywhere."

"I mean abandon me again."

"Stiles I never did that the first time."

I look down

"You think I did?" He asks worried and I nod gently

"It felt that way... it hurt that way too."

"I never meant for it to be that way I'm sorry baby."

"Can you promise you won't abandon me again Derek... it's a yes or a no."

"I promise."

I nod gently and sniffle

"I thought we were past this Sti."

"We are just." I look down

"Just what baby?"

"I messed up." I cry

Tears fill his eyes and he looks at me "what do you mean you messed up?"

I stand up and I go to the kitchen grabbing and container of shots. I can't keep it a secret from him. He deserves to know. I walk back in with the test in my sleeve and my container. I hand him the container and he looks at me worried before he opens it.