EDGE (H.S.)

59

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Oh, darlin', love me this way
'Til my feet take me to the grave

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Chapter 59

Renny's Pov

Waking up felt like opening my eyes to a foreign site. Even though it's my room. I vaguely remember laying in bed with Harry but I more so remember falling asleep in his lap. But how did I even get to his lap? I don't really know. Or how did we end up on the floor to begin with? I don't know.

I remember everything Shiloh said...in front of Harry. And then I remember Harry singing to me and me crying in his lap.

I remember a few things he said to me in between but not much. That happens. Or...it used to anyways. I would dissociate after any kind of triggering thing would happen. My overdose was the biggest thing I was afraid to bring up to Harry.

People look at you differently after they know you were a junkie. And I was. I know the word is harsh but I have to admit what I was. It sucks because I'm not that person now and I don't wanna be looked at as if I am, but I know he will look at me differently. I mean...right?

I felt Harry's hand rubbing over my hip and his face nuzzled into my neck.

"Are you awake?" He so lightly whispered and I thought about pretending I wasn't just so we don't have to talk about everything.

But I want to see him too badly to pretend.

I hummed a yes and his arm wrapped tightly around my waist and pulled me tight against him, his lips kissing my neck softly.

"Finally, hi baby." He whispered and I felt warmth spread throughout my entire body.

"Hi." I mustered out and wrapped my arm around his that was tight around my middle.

"Happy birthday angel." He whispered and it hit me.

Shit, it's my birthday.

"Oh...thank you." I mumbled.

Did I dream everything last night or did that really happen? He's acting as if nothing changed.

"Do you feel okay?" He whispered while still pressing kisses to my neck. "Uhm...yeah. I do." I admitted , the feeling of his lips making it impossible to say no.

I always feel okay with him.

"So fucking happy to hear that." He whispered and I closed my eyes while his mouth innocently kissed my neck.

"So what do you want to do today baby? We cannn lay here all day, we can go get food, we can go do anything you want, we can fly to fucking Brazil if you'd like." He mumbled and I chuckled for the first time in what felt like a minute.

"Yeah?" I felt him smile against my neck. "No I think that's okay, we'll wait on Brazil." I mumbled and he hummed.

"Besides...I thought you had a little, uhm, surprise for me." I nervously said and he stilled.