EDGE (H.S.)

36

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It all kicked off and it's been playing on my mind
The whole thing has been playing on my mind

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Chapter 36

Renny's Pov.

I woke up feeling the same way I felt when I went to sleep. Uneasy. Uneasy with all of this.

Harry's words in the shower when he said he worries every time he seems me in a vulnerable state like how he was seeing me in that moment, he worries it'll be the last time I let him.

I don't want that. I don't want it to be. But I can't keep doing this and not understanding what's going on. He's truly giving me whiplash. One minute he's somewhat admitting he cares about me in more of a way than just having sex with me but then the next minute, he's telling me not to complicate things and referring to me as someone he fucks.

That stung a lot more than I expected.

I slowly got out of bed without even looking over at Harry.

I wanna be here while he lazily decides to roll over on me in the mornings like he's started to do so often. I like his morning voice and his surprisingly good mood in the mornings.

I fucking like him.

And I feel like i'm just fucked because of it.

I can't be here right now.

I grabbed my phone and slowly slipped into the bathroom, logging into Uber and getting one that says it's 11 minutes away. I quickly peed and went back to his room quietly to put my shoes on.

I sat on the floor and grabbed them, slipping them on until I heard his voice.

"Where are you going?"

I closed my eyes and internally cursed before standing up with my shoes on.

"I'm gonna go. I have an Uber so.." I trailed off before grabbing my bag.

"Renny you can't be serious." He sat up now looking like he had barely even slept. I'm not sure he was even asleep during the whole time i've been up.

His shirtless torso and bed head making him look so good but also so innocent with tired eyes.

It's fucking hard to be mad at him. I am quite often though, it's just not easy.

"I tried to see if you were up last night to talk. Don't leave Ren."

I took a deep breathe, trying to stop myself from snapping at him.

"You made shit clear last night. You look at me in a very specific way and you think i'm complicating things but so are you and i'm not up to have fucking arguments anymore. I'm tired Harry." I admitted and he ran his fingers through his hair, rubbing his eyes.