EDGE (H.S.)

97

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I love that I can tell you anything
Can you imagine if we never let this happen?

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Chapter 97

Harry's Pov.

I wish I could say the nightmares stopped for me after all this time having Renny back again, but they haven't. They're not as frequent and for that i'm grateful but whenever she isn't here, I have them a lot. Sometimes I have them when she is here but not as often.

Tonight though, I did.

I tried to calm my heavy breathing and shake the horrible images from my head.

"Baby, what's wrong? Are you okay?" Her groggy, sleepy voice immediately comforted as she sat up. I didn't want anything except for her to be in my lap, and lucky for me she did exactly that without me having to pull her into it this time.

Her soft hands placed on the sides of my face and she gently kissed me. The feeling calming me slightly.

"You're okay." She whispered and I nodded. "You're okay. And you're with me....staying with me. Always." I hugged her to me and sighed, hating that I get these dreams. Hating that they make me insecure about us. Not about us, but about how she feels.

Sometimes the dreams are reminiscent of that horrible night and they're filled with images of her covered in blood...and then sometimes it's a different kind of painful. Sometimes it's that she doesn't want me or she wants someone else. I don't know why I have those dreams. She's never in all my time of having her made me question if she wants me...but I guess I just have to be realistic, i'm not easy.

"What kind of bad dream?" She whispered but I shook my head. "Doesn't matter." I whispered but she shook her head. "It does matter."

I just kept my hold on her, kissing over her shoulders as we hugged.

"I love you Harry." "I know baby. I love you t-" "No. I love you. So much and I just...I feel like I don't really tell you enough of how I really feel about you. I think you're stuck with this scenario in your head that you'll always love me a little more and that's so not fucking true. I love you just the same as you do me, if not more."

She paused but I didn't interrupt while she gently rubbed her thumbs over my cheeks. Just her sheer presence is like a comfort blanket to me.

"I don't want anything in this life unless you're there with me. You are so fucking important to me Harry and I know you went through all those months thinking I was hating you and that affected you. I get that. But I didn't hate you and I sure as fuck don't now. Nothing that happens in those fucked up dreams are going to happen because we talk about things. We communicate. It wouldn't get to a point where either of us would blindside each other like that. Right?"

I nodded and rubbed my hands up her thighs. She's right. We communicate. Even if we did end one day, which over my dead body, but in a hypothetical sense if we did, I know we would have talked about it and it wouldn't be something unexpected. I know that. I trust that.

"You're the only person in the world for me." She whispered and I took a deep breathe. "Yeah?" "Yeah..." She smiled and I tugged her closer against my body.

I nodded and kissed over her collarbones.

"I'll be sure to tell that new fucking doorman that." I mumbled, making her laugh.

Theres a new doorman of the lobby and while he's 'sweet' as Renny put it, it's obvious he's crushing on her.

"Okay, well I'll be sure to tell that to the new cocktail waitresses you hired too."

I chuckled against her skin and looked back at her.

"You really think i'm looking at them?" "You're a man. Of course you are."

That I didn't like.

"Wrong. I'm not just like any man. You know that. I'm a man that's fucking obsessed with you and doesn't even have wandering eyes for a split second. I know their names because I pay them but I couldn't identify a name to a face of any one of them if I tried. If it would make you feel better though, we can fuck with my office door open so they know my dick is yours."

She smirked and shrugged.

"Not a bad idea."

I raised my brows and slowly nodded.

"I'm holding you to that."

We sat in comfortable silence as I kissed over her chest and she played with my hair.

"I want to get you pregnant so fucking bad Renny...frustrating me that it's not happening." I admitted and she hummed.

"We have to start trying on my ovulation weeks. You know that's when it's easiest." "I know. I just don't get how you forgot birth control for a day and I get you pregnant but now we're fucking all the time without birth control and you're not."

She softly smiled down at me and hummed.

"You're gonna get me pregnant baby." "Questioning it." I mumbled and she frowned, making me wanna punch through a wall. "Hey, i'm kidding. I know I am. Just tell me ahead of time when you're ovulating. I will fucking cancel events, trips, anything."

She laughed and nodded.

"Got it baby. I ovulate in 6 days."

My ears perked up at that one.

"Good...then rest because we're not leaving this bed for days." She nodded with a small smirk.

I took a deep breathe and cleared my throat.

"I'm still taking you somewhere this weekend though. Are you still good with work?" She nodded and kissed me, catching me off guard. "Yes daddy. I'm good." She teased and I grabbed her throat, keeping her at my mouth when she tried to pull away.

"Don't play."

She chuckled against my lips and pulled away.

"Fine. Get some sleep. We both have work in a couple of hours."

Much to my dismay, she got out of my lap but it only took a few seconds before we were laying down and she was wrapped up close to me.

Renny has been the greatest blessing i've ever had. I don't know how long i'd have lasted in the life I had before her and truthfully, I don't even want to think about it. She was sent to me for a reason and although I never believed much in all that shit before, it has to be true. Or else, what the fuck am I doing with something so precious? I certainly didn't do anything to earn or deserve her.

"Hey..." I whispered and her 'hm?' vibrated in my chest where she laid. "You're the only person in the world for me too."

I felt her lips kiss my chest and that's how I fell asleep. No nightmares. No uncertainty. Nothing but comfort filled me while I slept with her in my arms.