The Assistant

Recovery

Kyra's POV

I woke up to the faint beeping sound of the hospital machines. My eyes felt heavy and sandy as I tried to pry them open, my whole body was aching as I tried to recall why I'm here. The light hit my eyes very intensely and caused me to stir a little and that's when David came into view.

I gave him a little smile as he looked at me with tortured eyes. He looked distressed, but I could also see the relief wash over his eyes when he realised I was okay. "Hey princess" he said softly.

I tried to speak but my throat felt scratchy, "shh it's okay princess, take your time. Here have some water" I had a large sip of the water he gave me and my throat hummed in approval.

"How are you feeling? Are you in any pain, should I get the doctor", he didn't even wait for me to respond before he buzzed the doctor in.

The doctor came in, asked how I was doing and told me the nurse would come in and give me more painkillers. He said I was lucky I got in the hospital when I did because I narrowly escaped death. When the doctors and nurses had run all their tests, they left me alone with David, who looked even more tortured than before.

My hand involuntarily went to my stomach. I watched him follow my hand and when he looked up at me, his expression was pain. I didn't need to ask because I knew exactly why he looked like that.

"No", one word. The first word I'd spoken since everything and it carried my whole heart. And ask the tears fell from his eyes and he said sorry repeatedly, I felt my whole world crumble.

I started sobbing really loudly and hyperventilating. The machines near me started beeping uncontrollably and the doctor and 2 nurses came rushing in. I tried to get up off the bed, to go out and find Jayden and murder him for taking my baby away from me. For taking my hope. I started trying to yank the tubes tied to me off and David kept trying to calm me down but I was unhinged. The nurses held me down as the doctor injected something into the drip and a few seconds later I felt myself eyes get droopy and everything went dark.

I woke up a few hours later and David was talking to his mum. I kept my eyes closed and listened in on the conversation.

"I failed her mum, I failed the both of them. I should have been there earlier. I shouldn't have let her go out alone, but how could I have known mum". He sounded like he was sobbing and it broke my heart to hear that he blamed himself.

"Son, you didn't know that that boy would do that. And you did your best to save them both, I'm sorry your lost your child, I can't imagine how that pain is like for you. But that woman laying down on that bed needs you, and you need her too. You both suffered this loss and neither of you are to blame, you hear me?" She responded.

"It hurts mum, it hearts so bad. I want to be strong for her, but all I'm thinking is this is my fault. That I did this to her. That I couldn't save our baby". After saying that he broke down fully and when I peaked he was sat in a couch on his mothers lap while she rubbed his back and tried to calm him down. My heart broke for him, but I knew he needed me to stay asleep, so I let him have his moment with his mum.

His mum consoled him and when he regained composure I stirred a little and slowly opened my eyes. He rushed over to my side and I could see how red his eyes were. He tried to maintain a brave face and I reached up and touched his cheek. "I love you", I whispered. He leaned over and pressed his lips to mine. "I love you too princess, I love you so much."

"You look like hell" I said with a half smile. "And you look beautiful princess, as always". He responded. "I'm sorry I failed you Kyra, I'm sorry I failed our little monkey, I'm sorry I failed our family" I could see the tears welling up in his eyes and I reached my hand up and touched his cheek.

"Please don't blame yourself, this wasn't your fault. You did everything you could and we might not understand it today but someday we'll get to know why it had to happen this way. We're gonna be okay" I reassured him softly.

"I love you so much Kyra". He whispered before planting a small kiss on my lips.

His mum came over to my bedside and shared a comforting hug and a few words before telling me she was going to go get us food so I wouldn't have to eat hospital food. I smiled a her and thanked her, even though in that moment I didn't feel thankful or feel like smiling, but for David, I was going to fake it.

I wanted to be okay, to move on from this but everything inside me told me that I can't. My heart was heavy and my entire existence was plagued with anger and resentment.

I didn't even flinch later that day when David told me that he'd shot Jayden. I didn't feel sadness for him, just anger. And part of me felt like it should have been me that pulled the trigger. He'd taken my child and my promise of a happy family. He'd taken everything from me. And now I didn't know how to go back to the place that me and David were before everything. I felt like our relationship was doomed and tainted from the start. We were never meant to be together and our relationship was so fast paced, it was bound to crash and burn. I just wished I had been more prepared.

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I got discharged a few days later and as soon as we left the hospital, a part of me died. There was a hole in my chest that not even my love for David could fix. I still loved him so much and I knew he loved me, but in that moment, it felt like love wasn't enough to heal the pain we'd just experienced. I could feel myself slipping away from him, I looked over at him as he drove us home and I could tell from the pained and tortured look in his eyes as they met mine that he knew he was losing me.