Oneshots (Book 2)

(RC9GN) No, it's time for me to BE good

(you have to watch the video above for it to make sense)

Randy Pov

I stare at the monster, no Howard as he glares at me through the eyes of his stanked form, he's so angry, in so much pain, i can't...i can't d-stank him there's nothing on him to break! No doodles are showing up in my vision to help me! Nothing! I'm truly alone....aren't i? Howard roars and i roll to the side avoiding his claw, i lay next to a vent and hear the Sorcerer cackling beneath the school, i grunt and rise to my feet avoiding another attack, my minds a mess, and it's showing, i'm barely avoiding attacks and i keep slipping, my breath is catching in my lungs, shoob i'm beginning to have a panic attack, i haven't had one since i became the ninja! And it's the one secret i never told Howard! He doesn't know so he won't even be hesitant to attack me, shoob, shoob, shoob! I rush into an abandoned classroom as Howard runs into a wall so he oesn't see me, i choke on my air as the mask seems to be strangling me, i look around the room noticing i'm alone and i go to reach for the mask to take it off only for my eye to catch the picture Howard left on the desk, and the doodles vaguely show up, not in color just outlines, showing that Nomicon wouldn't let me die but he's still upset with me, i pick up the picture and stare at it, my breathing calms and more tears fall from my eyes.

"I can't" i whisper i yank off the mask and stare at the two items, the mask and the picture of me and Howard the summer before i became the Ninja.....no, no, no i can't do it! I crumble the mask and throw it to the ground hugging the picture to my chest outright sobbing, Nomicon glows above me, i know i need to answer it and ignoring it it bad, but i can't, i'm not a Ninja, i was never meant to be a ninja, i'm just a monster, wait...monster...negative emotions, my head snaps up and i look over at a vent seeing green smoke slithering toward me and i jump up grabbing the mask and sliding it on, the smoke retreats and i let out a watery sigh, before thinking to get rid of the monster you have to break the most precious possession or an act of love, to rid of the negative emotions, or in my case the mask, i try to take a breath to calm my mind as i've been taught but all i can feel is the stuffy feeling and then i hear Mac Antfee's words in my head and i grip my head where my hair would be "no! No! I'm not like him! I'm not!" i cry out desperately but in my heart i know it's true, then i realize what i have to do, i place the picture and the nomicon into one of the pockets of the suit before smoke bombing to the main part of the school there's Howard, so i call to him "HOWARD!" he turns to me and growls.

I gulp and pull out my sword knowing what I have to do, he rears up and begins to charge and I close my eyes taking a single breath before plunging the sword through my stomach, silence not a single sound. I look up eye sight going blurry, Howard's stanked form stares at me in utter horror and i grunt walking forward letting go of the handle of my sword reaching out to his face and placing my forehead against his "i'm so sorry....be the better Ninja....than i could...." I whisper in pain and fear, my chest going full on panic mode and I gasp our crying as I slump to the ground, green smoke pulls away from Howard "CUNNINGHAM!" his scream echos through the school and area people are watching but i don't care i reach up and take his hand "I couldn't break it" i whisper pulling out the picture and he just sits there gaping like a fish, my breath picks up and i whisper out "m-my darkest s-secret? R-remember y-you wanted t-to know?" he's crying and i wheeze "i s-suffer from a-anxiety and panic at-attacks" i say with a soft smile he sobs "Cunningham...no please" i lift the mask off my face the fabric fading but not he sword, and i place it over Howard's head he's crying and i smile "be the better ninja" i whisper before everything fades to black.

(Sorry not sorry, i love angst, and y'all get it)