Oneshots (Book 2)

Mini chapters #1

(WARNING!) (Dear Evan Hanson deals with some topics that may result in you being uncomfortable or emotionally upset, please be aware before reading this Mini chapter)

Dear Logan Sanders AU

"I walked the hallways holding my books to my chest, their eyes are on me" Remus whispers, lip quivering as I sit beside me, he looks to me with distraught, "I hate their looks Lo, why did they have to look at me like that? I'm supposed to scare them. To freak them out, it's who i am" I take a breath before saying softly "i don't know Remus, i truly don't know" Remus lets out a watery sob. "What was my brother thinking!? He's gone and now everyone pities me! I hate it! I- i-" he stops his angered rant/confession "i miss him and i doubt he even liked me" i frown before softly saying "he thought you were awesome" Remus gives me a crazy look "he thought i was awesome? My brother?" I force a smile "definitely" he gives me a desperate look "how!?" i give him a soft look "well...

He said

There's nothing like your smile

Sort of subtle and perfect and real

He said

You never knew how wonderful that smile could make someone feel

And he knew

Whenever you get bored you'd scribble stars on the cuffs of your jeans"

A soft smile on my face and a noise escapes my lips

"And he noticed

That you still fill out the quizzes that they put in those horror magazines

But he kept it all inside his head

What he saw he left unsaid

And though he wanted to

He couldn't talk to you

He couldn't find the wa~y

But he would always say

If i could tell him

Tell him everything i see

If could tell him

That he's everything to me

But we~'re a million words apart

And i wouldn't know where i would even start

If i could tell hi~m

If i could te~ll"

I notice Remus is starting to cry again "d-did he say anything else?" i blink not expecting this to have worked "a-about you?" Remus backtracks as he's supposed to be the one who doesn't care "oh, no nevermind i don't really care anyways i-" i quickly interrupt him "no, no, no! He said, he said so many things i'm just trying to remember the best ones" i give a shrug and a slight sheepish smile, Remus just latches his eyes onto me hope filling them.

"He thought you looked really hot

Er ahem it looked pretty cool when you put indigo streaks in your hair"

"He did?" Remus asks surprised but hopeful and i smile nodding my head before trying to wrap my head around the next words i need to say "de-yuh,

And he wondered

how you learned to dance like the rest of the world isn't there

But he kept all inside his head

What he saw he left unsaid

If i could tell him

Tell him everything i see

If i could tell him

How he's everything to me

But we're a million worlds apart

And i wouldn't know how i would even start

If i could tell hi~m

If I could tell him~!"

I pull at the words Roman used to tell me when we were stuck being partners for things "you have to be more out there Logan, the world is your stage and out there somewhere your biggest fan is waiting to see the real you, let it out" to which i do.

"But what do you do when there's this great divide?"

"He just seemed so far away"

"And what do you do when the distance is too wide?"

"It's like i don't know anything.."

"And how do you say?

I love you~

I lo~ve you~~

I lo~ve you~~~

I lo~ve you~~~~~

But we're a~ million worlds apart

And i don't know how i would even start

If i could tell hi~~m

If i could~"

I didn't realize we had come face to face during my little song, but now i'm staring into the deep red ruby eyes of Remus Kingsly the man who lost his elder brothers, one because of illness and the other to taking his own life, his eyes reflect such hurt and hope and i know this was a ploy to get closer to Remus but i truly did have a friendship with Roman at one point and all that i said he mentioned once or twice minus the hair thing that was entirely me. Remus hugs me close "thanks Nerdy wolverine" which makes me hug him back mumbling "you both called me that" he lets out a soft sob into my chest "because it fits you, you dork" i just keep hugging him.

(Characters:

Evan : Logan

Conor : Roman

Conor's sister : Remus

Janus, Patton, Virgil i'm not sure who they'll play)

(should i make this a real story? yes or no?)