Her Stutters And Mumbles // P.J.M (#23)

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Jungwoo

I thought that something that had happened 10 years ago will not happen to me and even if it did, I wouldn't be that unlucky to be in that situation again. And I am the unlucky person to be in that situation once again and this time, it is even more terrifying because it is the person who I know quite well personally.

Kim Seokjin... How could he do this to me? I laid down without a single thought of getting out of bed and I am terrified to get out of the room, I don't exactly know where I am right now but I know that I am not in my house because my father would be the one who would be so angry at everyone and he would blame Jung HoSeok for everything that had happened.

But it is not his fault, it was never his fault and I know that very well. He was the one who saved me 10 years ago and he saved me once again this time, even though he was late but he saved me without any hesitation. I also have no idea how many days it has been and I know that I probably stink a lot because I haven't taken a shower since that day and I am stuck in bed without knowing what to do.

There was a knock on the door and I curled up in defence by instinct and I waited for the person to give up on knocking on the door and hopefully go away and never come back, everything terrifies me and I am scared of everything. It is all because of Kim Seokjin...

"Jungwoo, I am leaving food by your doorstep, today's lunch is tteokguk, I hope that it is up to your liking." It was Jisoo and then I figured out that I am at her house, I mean her parents own the property and she lives there so it is her house.

So Jisoo has been the one who had been letting me stay at her place the whole time... She sure is a good friend but does Kim Seokjin come here very often? I tensed up just thinking about it and I can't stand Kim Seokjin near me at all, he is the worst person to ever exist and he shouldn't be called a human being.

"I will be going to school and I will get back by dinnertime," Jisoo said to me. "Remember to call me if you want to talk to me, I will answer your calls no matter what."

I want to call her and she wants me to call her but she feels guilty for not being there for me when it happened and she was in the same place when it happened and she got knocked in the back of her head, she had respected her older brother ever since she knew the word respect and she thought that her older brother is the best person to ever exist and she had set her older brother as her role model and now knowing what her older brother did to me, she wouldn't know what to do and she can't even look at me in the eye like before.

But to be honest, it is not her fault and no one is to be blamed here except for Kim Seokjin because he chose to be the bad guy and he is to be blamed for everything and what he did to me was simply unforgivable even if he is a close friend to me and he is my best friend's older brother, it just doesn't make sense why he would even want to do this to me.

It could be that he is angry at Jung HoSeok for ruining everything but there is nothing for him to ruin, and I know that Jung HoSeok is trying to cause chaos by exposing Jimin's past but that is in the past and it doesn't need to be talked about. But he doesn't have the right to think that he can do that to me, he had gone too far and I can call the cops on him but I didn't do that because it would be too cruel and everyone would think that I am the one to be blamed for everything that I should be getting an apology for.

I opened the door just a little so that I can get the food and Jisoo cooked tteokguk for me, it is not piping hot anymore but it should still be delicious. It is my first meal out of the 3 days that I am here, I confirmed the date by looking at the calendar at the bedside table and it had been nearly 3 days and I haven't been anywhere at all.

I finished the soup and I continued to stare at nothingness once again memories from that day came back to my mind and I curled up into a ball and I laid down on the bed, my eyes full of tears and it can't be stopped no matter what I do and I just to have to sit and wait till the tears stop flowing and then I will continue to stare at nothingness again.

I heard another knock on the door and it was 7 pm, Jisoo is back home and she is back with food to feed me. "Jungwoo, I am back with a cheeseburger, the ones with the melted cheese on top of the bun. I was passing by the store and I brought it for you."

I got out of bed and I decided to open the door for her to enter, the door was open and she is standing with the food in her hand. "Jungwoo? Jungwoo, here." She passed me my food. "Finish all of that up and I will come back to collect it in one hour."

I grabbed onto her sleeve and pointed it towards the bed. "E-eat it with me, J-jisoo."