Eric Lets Go

Chapter 10

**Sophia's POV**

I was the fourth one to go today so I already went through my fear. It was a fear of my dad. It was hard at first but I released a lot of anger and fought back. Except Lauren walked me back instead of Eric. I knew Eric wanted to keep it a secret that we are dating until initiation is over, so I didn't ask her where he is. Instead I told her I was good to keep going on my own and made my way to Eric's apartment. When I knocked, I heard nothing. I knocked again, louder this time, and still nothing. I tried the door nob and to my surprise it was open! I open it to see glass shattered everywhere. A little screech escapes my mouth at the sight of this. I keep telling myself there is a good reason for this, but a small part of me is telling me I caused this.

I step over shards of glass and check the bathroom. It's empty. Then I check the kitchen, that's empty too. The last place is his bedroom. The door is cracked open a little bit. I peek through the door, but don't have a clear view of anything so I open the door more. As I open it, it creaks. That's when something big in the bed moves. Thank God it was Eric and Eric ONLY. I smile, seeing him sleep. My smile drops, though, when I remember the glass in the living room.

I sit on Eric's bedside and he's sweating. I place my hand on his face, gently cupping his right cheek. I say his name softly, but everytime I do he flinches. He must be having one of those nightmares. I start to softly shake him, I don't want to startle him but he needs to wake up.

He wakes with a jolt, hitting his forehead on my. I grab my forehead in pain and watch him, as he calms his breathe. "You scared me," he said, rubbing his head.

"Sorry," I was quiet. "Do you want to talk about it?" Clearly he knew what I meant and was frustrated.

"No! I don't need any damn sympathy!" He shouted. I flinched at this and looked away. I knew he was upset from his sleep, but I just wanted to help.

"Okay, well I just wanted to check on you, so I'll just go now." I got up to leave because I felt unwanted at the moment, then he grabbed my arm and pulled me back onto the bed.

He let out a big sigh, "I'm sorry, Sophia. I just don't feel good and the nightmares don't make it any better. I didn't mean to yell at you." He said putting his forehead on mine. "Thank you for caring," he kissed me when he was done talking. It wasn't the kind of kiss he gives me when he wants more than just a kiss. It was slow, and genuine, telling me he really does care. He pulls me onto him, my legs straddling him, and continue to kiss him.

My curiosity takes over so I brake away and asked, "What's with all the broken glass in your living room?" I can't exactly read his facial expression, but it looks like he's angry and slightly embarrassed.

"I just couldn't find a file that Max gave me and tore the place apart looking for it," he was looking anywhere but my eyes.

I eyed him suspiciously, "Is that right?" I asked. He nodded slightly. He leaned in to kiss me and right before he pressed his lips to mine I turned away, letting him kiss my cheek and I got up. As I walked to the door I stopped and said, "I don't really like it when you lie to me, ya know." I saw he was ashamed of himself but if he didn't want to tell me, I didn't want to be there.

As I was eating lunch, the mess hall got quiet. I didn't even have to look to know it was Eric. My friends looked down at their food but I kept my head held high. He must be behind me. I look at the man behind me and see he's in leader mode. Great. "A word, initiate." He demanded rather than asked. I got up and walked out with Eric on my heels. He pushed me against the wall, once we got to a deserted hallway of course, and tried to kiss me but I turned away. "I don't like it when you're mad at me." His hot breathe hitting my face.

"I don't like when you don't tell me things," I shot back.

"What?" He asked confused.

"Eric, I know what you told me about all the glass in your apartment is a lie. I don't get why you can't tell me," I shrugged. He was silent which made me nervous.

He took in a big breathe and blew it out. "Remember how you told me not to go and do something stupid last night, like go to the bar?" He asked and my eyes widened and I nodded praying to God he listened to me. "Well I didn't go, I just bought a lot of beer and drank it with Lauren. I was super drunk and bumped into stuff and never picked it up."

He said the last part super fast. I had to stop and process what he said. So he went against me but he didnt. I narrowed my eyes at him, "I can't believe it," I whispered more to myself than him, "I can't believe you went against what I said," I started raising my voice now, "Eric! I told you it was fine! I didn't want you doing something stupid because I have a fear that involves you! WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT!?" I was boiling now.

"Because it hurts me when I do something wrong to you! I have had this pit in my stomach since yesterday! I worry about you all the time not because I don't trust you! But because I'm afraid to lose you!" I was in shock. Nobody ever says things like that to me.

"I love you Eric but I need to know I can count on you not to do anything stupid when something bad happens between us." My voice was back down to its normal level.

"I can't promise anything," he stepped closer putting his forehead back on mine.

"Eriiic," I slightly growled slightly whined.

"It's just," he paused, "You make me crazy and I've never felt like this so I don't exactly know how to react to things." He is so sweet.

"Well," I put my hands on his chest, "No matter what happens," I get on my tiptoes, "I'm always," I hovered my lips over his, "yours." He closed the gap between us and we kissed passionately until there was a noise coming from the end of the hallway. We both looked in that direction but saw nothing. When we looked back at each other, I pecked his lips and said, "Why don't we go back to your place."

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