Eric Lets Go

Chapter 39

I rubbed my fingers across the words in disbelief. Silent tears flowed down my cheeks. I don't know if I want to open this, though. I had already gone through enough today, I had already cried enough.

Not being able to put it down, I slowly turned it over with shaky hands. I pulled the top up and slid the paper out. The letter was neatly folded in thirds.

As I unfolded it, his writing came into view but I couldn't read any of it. My eyes danced around the page, overwhelmed by the message.

I squeezed my eyes shut and took three deep breathes to calm myself the best I could. When my eyes opened, I did my best to focus on the top where it all started.

Dear Sophia,

If you're reading this, then that must mean my worst nightmare came true. I let you down and I'm sorry for that. Hopefully I was able to get the rest of the crew out alive.

I know you're heartbroken but let me tell you, you shouldn't be. You have a full life ahead of you to do all the things we couldn't.

You are beautiful inside and out, I was a lucky man. I did not deserve you. I know you'd like to think differently, and I love you for that, but you could never convince me otherwise.

You made me feel like I wasn't the dick leader everyone else thought I was. Somehow you managed to pull me out of the trance I had been in. I messed up many times and I am forever sorry about that. I could never make it up to you, I know that, but you forgave me. I am forever thankful for that.

I know you're sad and it's been a long day, so get some rest. You probably haven't eaten, but I left a box of pizza in the fridge for you because I know you wouldn't go out for food.

Please don't let this slow down the greatness you have in store for you. I know that you are meant for greatness. I could see it in your eyes. I love your heart and I love everything about you.

I know this is a shitty goodbye but I'll see you again someday. I'll keep a close eye on you cause I know you're trouble. If you ever feel alone, remember I'm always with you. I mean I have to protect you're well being anyway, right?

Love Eric

That was it. That's all that I have left of him. I grip the paper harder out of anger, even though tears were still streaming. For some reason I swung my legs off the bed, pulled on a pair of short shorts and stormed out of the apartment with the letter still gripped in my hands.

I reread the words continuously as my legs took me the same route they always took.

134b.

I knocked on the door angrily. My jaw ached from having it clenched and my eyes burned.

Sam opened the door with one hand rubbing his right eye.

"Hey, you alright?" He asks half worried half confused. His voice was low and husky. In any other situation I would've thought he looked sexy in his boxers, shirtless with his hair thrown in different directions, but not now.

"That dick," I spit through gritted teeth. I was furious. I held the paper up in my right hand.

"What?" He asks. "Why don't you come in, Soph."