Ella's POV (Point of View)
A couple days have passed since I've gotten back because of Josh's accident. He is still unconscious and the doctors still believe that his situation is critical. Everyday I wake up with the hope that I will get there and they'll tell me that he's awake but it seems that day never comes. I had to call my college and ask them if there was any possibility to finish college from here since I have basically taken all of my exams and there are only a few papers left to deliver. Thankfully they said that since my grades were amazing there would be no issues and I could just come back to get the diploma, as long as I finish everything I need to on time.
That being said, my days have been spent at the hospital, sitting by Josh with my computer working on my papers and waiting for him to give me a sign. One time I even thought I saw him move his hand slightly but it seems that it was just my mind playing tricks on me. Harry visits every two days since he can't afford to drive here all the time and he was failing his classes which means he had some catching up to do. We talked a lot and I told him that he needs to focus on passing his classes because whenever Josh wakes up, he wouldn't forgive him if he missed out on a career due to that.
Harry refuses to tell me if they were offered the studio deal or not, and every time I ask he argues back that Josh made it very clear he wanted to tell me himself. That is enough for me to know, or believe, that they got it, otherwise, he wouldn't have had a problem telling me in these circumstances. Samuel is still a complete mess and Caroline just does her best to be strong for him. She says that he wakes up in the middle of the night screaming and basically doesn't get much more than 2 or 3 hours of sleep. He feels too guilty about what happened although it's not his fault at all. They have been staying over at Bob's since he's also a nervous wreck and cannot imagine himself losing his youngest son.
I don't think any of us are prepared to lose Josh at such a young age. We all have different reasons but the very same love for the dark haired, blue eyed boy. Bob would lose his youngest son, after working so hard to prove himself as a good man and father. Samuel would lose his little brother, the one he always wanted to shelter from the world and felt like he failed every time. Grace would lose the son she so desperately tried to win back, no matter how many times he would push her away, and with him the chances of forgiveness would go too. Harry would lose his best friend, his band mate, his room mate of the past 2 years. I would lose the absolute love of my life, the person I want next to me through the good, the bad, the ugly, anything. I would lose the boy I'm completely crazy about. I would lose the person who loves me the most in the world and that believed in us just as much as I did, even when we couldn't admit that to ourselves. We'd all lose a part of us.
I have been spending the night by myself at our apartment and each time I admire the great work Josh did at making it feel like home. He hung old and more recent pictures of us on the walls, he also hung some paintings I had in my old room. He went through the trouble of bringing all my things from my parents house so I could have everything I needed here when I came back home. At night, I can't help myself but sleep hugging a sweatshirt that smells just like him. I believe that he put it on the weekend before the show when he came home, because he told me that he was freezing when he got to Brighton since he forgot his sweatshirt at home. At the time I yelled at him because he could get sick just a couple days before such an important show but now I'm glad that he forgot it here.
I finally gather the strength to get up from bed and take a quick shower before getting ready to head back to the hospital. This time I don't need to take my laptop since I've finished all my papers and have them ready to deliver, don't judge me but I might spend a bit too much time at the hospital until they basically kick me out. After I get ready, I get in my rental car, since mine pretty much got destroyed in the accident. We've sent in the papers to the insurance company and are currently waiting for them to give me a new one. Thank God for expensive insurance that actually pays off. It's a good thing that I remembered to list Josh as the main driver of the car or we would be screwed.
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