Last night and I say last night even though it's actually gonna be tonight...I mean, and I've explained this before and I don't get tired of explaining again cause this time loop is freakin awesome and I so totally love it...we watched the movie The Fault in Our Stars and again I just love this sweet and adorable and oh so sad story of two teenage cancer victims. We cried and laughed and now we want to read the book again and live through Hazel and Augustus lives that way again and again because they touched us so much...that love they shared and the connection they formed for each other...the trip they took together...in some ways it's like the love Claire and I share...and the connection we've formed.
Somehow that sad story makes us love each other even more and cherish our time together even that much more. We know that we will always be together, that neither one of us will die and leave the other behind and the one left will have to survive and still want to live. We will never experience that. But through the words on the page and the images on the screen, we can, in a way, live through that and learn from it. That life is precious and do not ever take it for granted even the two of us living in this time loop of the same day over and over. To not take each other for granted...to love and cherish each other and everyday let the other person know that they are the most important person in all the world...that Claire has become my world...that I would do anything for her, and I know that she would do anything for me.
Loving Claire has taught me to trust again and to be truly happy again...it's taught me how to share...like really share...my thoughts and fears and worries... which granted living in this time loop there's not that much to worry about anymore, but I know that she would do anything to help me in any situation or circumstance. And I would do the same for her as well and be so happy doing it.
I want to figure out how this all happened...the time loop... Claire showing up and finding her way into the loop, but then I'm afraid that if I dig too deeply maybe I'll mess it up and so I don't dig and I don't figure it out. I just live it day after day and truly love every minute of it and there she is now at my door...she left earlier to go and get us some more coffee and drop off some toys at the shelter so the children there can have a bit of fun for the day (it's not something she does every day though) and give me a chance to write and I can't wait for her to read all of this....
YOU ARE READING
November Days
Fiksi IlmiahIf you found yourself living in a time loop, would you try all that you could to escape? Or would you try and find love there?
