•|Us Again (Completed)

chapter 17

JISOO

The sobbing sound that kept coming from both of us, as his warm secured embrace hugs me like his life depends on it.

But the ugly truth is its my life depends on him, because one second with just a blink of eye, my life might be out of sight.

And that's what scared me now, my cardiologist says that my heart could only stay for a while because its getting weaker and weaker when days/ weeks passed by, and only a heart donor would do to keep my life going if I undergo into a life-death surgery transplant.

Taehyung and I's wedding will be held next week in private. Tying the knots with him is my biggest and dearest dream.

My parents knew about my condition, as well now our friends. His parents knows as well since Jennie being cousins with him insisted.

"Since w-when you knew that its back?" Taehyung voice croaked when he say the words, gently distancing himself from me but keeps his hand on my waist.

"The day I said that my schedule got tight, after my taping" I honestly answered, bowing my head down.

He didn't respond but I can still feel his gaze on me, so I continued to talk.

"Jennie accompanied me to go to my doctor" I stopped as I look up at him, the glisten of tears on his eyes felt like a million of daggers throwed on my heart. "O-on our way there.....my illness attacked." I sobbed my tears away.

"And when I woke up, my cardiologist confirmed that it's my Arrhythmias...." The words painfully slipped from my tounge. "Jennie took care of me on my stay in the hospital for three days"

"And that three days you said you're on your magazine shoot is the time that you we're lying on your hospital bed?" Taehyung's voice is small yet cold, but the care is still on it.

The fact that I lied to him, because of the selfish decision I made, makes a tear escaped from my eye.

"I'm s-sorry Tae..." I mumbled while rubbing both of his hand.

"I'm supposed to be there that time, not my cousin. I was the one who should take care of you, not Jennie. Soo why you have to lie at me?" The vurnability on his voice heard.

"Jennie insisted so many times to tell you, b-but I stopped her, I am afraid to tell you love."

"And now you're not?" Taehyung's grip on my waist loosens as he steps back from me, and that breaks me in million pieces.

"Taehyung..." I called out his name, but his head keeps hanging low.

"We're getting married Jisoo" There's something in his voice when he says my name, its clenched my heart.

"Love"

"I'm afraid to lose you..." He whispered "I can't imagine my life without you" he looks through my eyes. "Hon?...why its had to be you? Of all of people why you?" Taehyung's tears streames again as he frustratedly pace back and forth.

"There's so many bad people out there, there's a lot of people who wants to end their lives! Fuck! Why its had to be you!" Taehyung yelled, punching the wall several times letting out his emotions.

"Taehyung..." I sobbed as he leaned his forehead on the wall, right hand beside it while resting on the wall.

I hugged him from behind as the tears keeps falling down.

"I can't lose you Soo" he emotionally whispered as he turns around to face me, his bloodshot eyes met mine.

"You won't lose me Tae...I won't allow that to h-happen" my voice croaks as he engulf me into another warm loving hug.

TAEHYUNG

"Are you really just being this way, flooding your stomach with damn alcohols until you collapse and die?!"

Hobi-hyung's voice made my eye rolls, as he keeps walking and walking in front of me.

"If it's means numbing the any pain I've feeling right now then why not?" I deadpan while staring at the bottle of beer on my hand, while the other empty bottles was already scattered on the floor.

"You're out of your mind" he scoffs

"Maybe I am" I mumbled

"Do you think Jisoo would like it if she knew about what you were doing right now?" He threatened

"Don't you dare tell her, Hyung" I warned which made him scoffs once again.

"You idiot" he points a finger on me that made me scowls " Honestly" he pushed back his hair as he irritatedly glares at me "You looks like a fucking damn mess right now" he insults.

"Yeah yeah say what you want" I scratch what he was saying as I sipped on my beer.

"I'm now regretting that I let you here" he pinched the bridge of his nose in annoyance.

"I will go home later, Hyung. I just need some time" I reasoned.

Well after the revelation I knew yesterday, I made my way to the dorm only to see J-hope Hyung left since the others are busy with their families and girlfriends.

"I swear Taehyung, be a man. Jisoo chose to hide it because she know that you'll be like this way" he scolds.

"She still lied, I'm her fiancé. She have so many times to tell me but she still didn't"

"Because she doesn't want you to get hurt" Hyung sat beside me.

"But the action says the otherwise, I'm hurt" I mumbled, bitterly.

"Okay fine, let's say you are hurt. But how about what Jisoo feels right now? She's afraid to tell because you'll be like this, and bingo here you are. Idiot. Instead of being a mess here why don't you take care of your wife" he says

I didn't answered, I rest the bottle which on my hand on the coffee table. "I don't know..." I honestly mumbled.

"I can't even bare a stare to her..."

"Because you are hurt?" He asked

"Yeah-"

"Then Jisoo is not for what you act right now?" He instantly countered back. "If you are hurting, Jisoo is hurting too because the fact that she's baring the pain with herself, she knew that you'll be this way, the fact that she might think that you careless to her because she had a mistake."

"I always care Hyung" I said

"Then go, Pabo. There's a family waiting for you to comeback home"

The realization, the regrets of being self centered, the regret of running away, its all punched me like a rockstar.

"You should be there for her on her hard times, how will you fullfil the promise that you'll be there for her in sickness and health, if in this situation you choose to run away" Hobi hyung's words wakes my body up as my mind works to lead the right way.

"Hyung" I bolted up from my seat as I called him, he gaves a small smile.

"You were like a brother to me Tae, and as a brother I will not tolerate this kind of careless action in your life, you should be a man for your woman" he added.

"I'm saying this because Jisoo doesn't deserve to be treated this way, the woman was afraid. And as her soon to be husband? You made her feel like-"

"No. No Hyung, Jisoo and I were both afraid to lose someone. I didn't meant her to feel that way. That she's not important to me, because she is. That woman is my life" I said which made hyung's smile widen.

"Then go. Prove your words to her. Don't smile like a effin bear infront of me V. Go to your home!" He said

Home... She's my home, Adiel and her is my home. They're are Kim Taehyung's home.

"Thanks for the words Hyung! I love you!" I shouted, running my way out.

"Pabo! I love you too!" He yelled back as a smile crept on my lips.

I'm coming home

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