HEAL ME (RYEJI)

CHAPTER 31

Ryujin arrived at her penthouse. she put in her password and went in. soon, a weight hit her and arms wrapped around her waist.

"I'm sorry."

Ryujin looked down. Yeji damped Ryujin's shirt with her tears. Ryujin hugged her back.

"I thought you're gone." Yeji pulled away.

"let's sit down." Ryujin dropped her suitcase and sked Taehyung to put it inside. "what are you doing here?"

"you don't miss me?" Yeji questioned her. "I know I've hurt you that day, please forgive me, Ryu."

"I forgive you." Ryujin caressed her head. "you can go home now."

"go home? When I'm with you, I'm home. Can I stay?" Yeji pleaded.

"are you running away from your mom?" Ryujin calmly said.

"yes. I ran for you. I want you back."

Ryujin sighed. Even after the trip and she realized what love is, she found out that she loves her and always will. The one that never meant to be hers.

"we don't belong together, Yeji. you should know that." Ryujin tried to calm her down.

Yeji didn't hesitate to throw a good slap at Ryujin. Not once, but, three times. She's angry, mad, desperate. Yeji continued to punch Ryujin where it's reachable.

"hey. Listen. Stop." Ryujin held both of her wrists. "I know your angry. I know I upset you. But it is what it is. We have a different life, rules, way of living. You sure you want to be with a criminal like me? A bad person who kills people. I'm violent, Yeji. I can kill you any time. You don't want that."

"did you just give up on us?" Yeji lowered her hands. "what happened to run away together? Bonnie and Clyde bullshit that you told me. You don't want me anymore?"

"you deserve better." Ryujin avoided any eye contact with her. "I don't want to be a burden to you."

Yeji grabbed Ryujin's chin, making them facing each other. Yeji leaned in and kissed her aggressively, hoping that it will bring her old self back. Ryujin gladly kissed her back. It ticks her. her abusive tendencies starts coming back.

"I need you to understand how dangerous I am!" Ryujin stood up, pushing Yeji away. "I tried so fucking hard to understand everything for my whole life and I never know what it's like to be happy, loved, and peaceful!" Ryujin pinned Yeji to the couch with her forearm on her neck. "I'm sick and tired of my life being filled with emptiness. Do you really care about that? Do you really understand what I feel?!" Ryujin took a step back. "all my life, people saw me as a sick psychopathic person. They only cared about that. Not my career, my feelings, or my fucking problems! I have no one, Yeji. I probably don't deserve them. I can only do harm to anyone around me."

Yeji walked towards Ryujin, sitting on the floor. Yeji saw that Ryujin tried not to cry in front of her. Yeji slowly wrapped her arms around Ryujin. Embracing her like a little girl.

"people died because of me just because they're happy with their life. I hate that. That's why I need you to stay away from me and be happy. Because if I saw you, I have to be gone from this world." Ryujin made her voice clear.

"can't you see? I'm not happy, Ryujin. I'm happy when I'm with you. I love you." Yeji caressed her head. "I care about you as Shin Ryujin. Not my patient, not a sick person, or even a criminal."

"I need you to leave, now. Please. Give me time."

-

Later that night, Yeji cried in Yuna's arms. this goes on for about 10 minutes now.

"it's okay, Yeji. it's for the best. If you guys are meant to be, I'm sure the world will find a way to get you back together." Yuna caressed her back.

"how long, Yu? I've wasted my time, worrying about my own life, thinking that it's better that way." Yeji cried even harder.

"you have to move on with your life to find out. Sometimes, being patient is the only way right now."

"so I have to face my mom, now?" Yeji sat up. "I'm ashamed. I fought with her just to get dumped by Ryujin."

"that's the part of moving on. You have to face it. I'll support you from behind." Yuna encouraged her with a smile.

"thank you for always here with me." Yeji said to her.

"no problem."

And so, Yeji finally faced her mother.

"so how is it? Did she want you?" Dahyun got straight to the point.

"she will." Yeji looked at her. "maybe not this time. In the future. I will be with her."

"don't get your hopes up with someone like her. she's no good. Look at you. Crying all night just for a girl then coming back at me." Dahyun actually feel sorry for her daughter. Seeing her being hurt by Ryujin made her furious. "you should've let me handle her in the first place."

"she's different now. She changed. I know that."

"someone with a mental illness cannot change. It will always be the part of who they are and you can't deny that fact." Dahyun folded her arms. "I will find you another man. I don't want you to see her again."

"no. stop controlling my life. I'm capable of taking care of myself." Yeji raised her voice.

"did Ryujin really get into your head? You became crazy. Like her."

"what if she did? What if it's you who caused me to go crazy?" Yeji stood up, pointing at her mother.

"you dared pointing a finger at me? I didn't raise you to be a rebellious girl. If that's what you want then go for her." Dahyun stood up. "don't ever show up to me and tell me about your stupid heartbreak with that psychopath."

"fine! You're the worst mother ever!" Yeji then stormed off, out of the mansion.

-

Ryujin is finally back to work. Surprisingly, everything is going well when she's away.

"Chae, can you get me the files about our deals with Eunwoo?" Ryujin asked nicely.

Ryujin read the files and sighed. She decided to call Eunwoo.

"I'd like to talk to Mr. Cha." Ryujin asked the girl behind the phone. Soon after she's connected with him. "you can stop paying us, now."

"really? Why? You won't kill me, right?"

"I mean I'd like to but I won't. I will give back your assets too. You need them more than me." Ryujin fixed her glasses. "don't worry about a thing. I know you won't marry her so will show you a little mercy."

"oh how nice. Okay then. I can continue to chase her. thanks Ryujin."

Before she can say anything, Eunwoo hung up the call. Ryujin then threw the phone on the wall, breaking it into several parts.

"I will fucking kill you for sure."