Midoriya Izuku

Poly comfort, with Todoroki and Bakugou

A/N: Some comfort for a request on my tumblr "herofics". It's just some poly comfort

You weren't even sure if you had fallen asleep at any point. The guys were sleeping peacefully on both sides of you, so you were pretty much trapped in the middle of the bed. You considered wiggling your way to the end of the bed and getting out, but you didn't want to wake the others. You just laid there, staring at the ceiling, feeling numb.

You were trying not to let the thoughts of self-doubt and self-hatred in, but it wasn't working. Your brain was screaming at you, and you could feel your hands starting to tremble. You held your hands together, hoping it would help with the trembling, but it didn't. Your whole body was starting to quiver, and you could feel the tears stinging your eyes. You grabbed your pillow and placed it on your face to muffle the sounds of your sobbing. You lifted the pillow off periodically, so you could get a few breaths of air in between your sobs.

Something was invading Bakugou's sleep, a quiet noise that sounded like someone crying. He didn't ignore it, and woke up in a very groggy state. He was right next to you on your left, and when he reached for you, he could feel you trembling.

He kicked his leg backwards at Midoriya, who woke up with a small yelp, lifting his head up from the pillow.

"Kacchan?" he whispered sleepily with a hint of annoyance in his voice.

Bakugou nodded towards you and reached for Todoroki's shoulder, shaking it to wake him up as well.

"Hmm?" the young man mumbled, before noticing you were covering your face with a pillow.

You knew you'd woken the others up when someone started pulling on the pillow that was covering your face. You held onto it for a little while, letting him lift it off your face a little bit, so it was easier to breathe.

"(Name), let go of the damn pillow" you could hear Bakugou say.

You hiccupped between your sobs and let go of the pillow. Bakugou threw it aside and looked at you in the dim light of the early morning.

"Are you okay?" Midoriya asked from behind Bakugou, sitting up on the bed.

"I-I'm fine-fine, sorry I woke you guys" you stammered, trying to stifle your sobs.

"We can see you're not okay, love, talk to us" Todoroki said from next to you.

You sat up on the bed and the two who were still laying down followed your example. Bakugou pulled you to him and you ended up sitting between his legs, leaning your back on his chest. Todoroki and Midoriya moved closer as well. Todoroki grabbed your hand and MIdoriya put his hand on your calf, moving it up and down your leg for a bit.

"It's okay, we're here for you" Midoriya assured.

"So just talk to us" Bakugou said.

You took a few deep, wavering breaths, before saying: "I don't know what's wrong with-with me. I can't keep my thoughts in order and I can't-I can't stop thinking about dying. I'm just so tired of-of everything" you sobbed, covering your face with your hands.

The trio of young men looked at each other with worry painted clearly on their faces, before nodding at each other.

"It's okay. What can we do to help?" Todoroki asked.

"I-I don't know" you said, feeling your breathing quickening.

"Hey hey hey, calm down, you're going to have a panic attack" Bakugou said, trying to keep you calm.

"I-I ca-can't" you stammered.

You were starting to hyperventilate and Bakugou could feel you trembling against his chest.

"(Name), look at me, okay? Just breathe with me" Midoriya said.

Todoroki felt helpless, but he also knew it wasn't good to jump in, because too many people talking at once and trying to get you to calm down would just get confusing for you. He kept holding your hand and caressing the top of your palm with his thumb.

Midoriya was trying to get your breathing under control by showing you what pace to breathe at. He'd done this many times before when you had had panic attacks, and it did work, eventually. Midoriya just had to get you into the rhythm. However it didn't really seem to be working this time, because you just couldn't grasp the pace of his breathing so you could match it.

"Izu-Izuku, I can't" you sobbed between your shallow breaths.

"It's okay, you'll get it, you'll get it" Midoriya reassured, looking at Bakugou and then Todoroki with worried eyes.

Todoroki grabbed Midoriya's free hand and nodded to him in approval. To assure him he was doing the right thing.

You did eventually get your breathing under control, but it took a while. After your panic attack had passed, you were barely able to stay awake, you felt so tired. Now both physically and mentally.

"I'm sorry, I don't want to be a bother to you guys" you muttered tiredly, resting your head back against Bakugou's chest.

"You could never be a bother" Todoroki said, squeezing your hand, and placing a kiss on top of your palm.

"Shouto's right, we love you and we want to help" Midoriya said.

"I agree with the nerd" Bakugou said softly, placing a kiss on your cheek.

"I thought you gave up that nickname a while ago" you said with a yawn.

"Never, Izuku is a nerd no matter how much time passes" Bakugou chuckled slightly.

"Kacchan" Midoriya whined, but he was smiling.

"We should get some sleep or at least (Name) should, I don't think they've slept much the whole night" Todoroki said.

"I'm fine" you muttered, shaking your head lazily.

"You need your rest" the trio of young men said in unison.

"Okay, okay"

You laid down between Todoroki and Bakugou, both of who snuggled close to you, with Midoriya cuddling up to Bakugou. You felt a little better, your brain wasn't screaming anymore, or at least not as loudly, and you felt calmer. You felt lucky to have such amazing partners, but there was still something gnawing at you at the back of your mind, but you decided you would try to ignore it for now and try to sleep. Maybe things would be different tomorrow.