Unrequited love

Twenty five | Alex

'He was being so weird today at school,' Katie takes a bite out of one of her French fries.

Usually on Friday's we buy hot chips at the diner near the school and take it my place. My bedroom window is right above one of the roof ledges so we sit on it and watch the sun. We did it as a joke because it's corny as fuck but it just became normal after some time. Weird how something you used to view in a negative light can becomes so positive so fast.

'Noah is just weird.' I respond truthfully.

I'll never understand what she likes about him, it's not like his personality is good or anything.

'I guess...but I saw him once so I decided to smile and wave,' she mumbles before slouching. 'He just gave me an awkward smile back then I didn't see him all day...it's like he's avoiding me,'

Sighing I turn to look at her, to see she's biting her lip. 'Come here,'

Shuffling over to me she rests her head on my shoulder. Wrapping my hand around her waist to hold her near me I feel a sharp pain in my chest.

The things I would give for her to think of me the same way she thinks of him. A part of me even feels a little guilty since I sometimes catch myself wishing he'd just ghost her. The last thing I want is for her to be hurt but fuck.

'Why do you even like him?' I look down at her, she doesn't question my judgement. I've made it very clear how much I disliked him.

'I don't know...I feel like he makes me feel special? I felt comfortable around him so I accidentally went to far with it,' she places her hand on my chest. 'I've never even gone that far with...anyone really.'

'I warned you not to do that Katie,' I try to hide my disappointment, 'he's not...the best. He's shady.'

'I understand. But he's so different when he speaks to me? He's fun, nice and he understands me. I know that sounds so cheesy but not a lot of people do and it makes me smile because-,' she tries to defend herself again but I cut her off.

'But don't I make you smile?' I accidentally ask harshly which suprises her.

Lifting herself off me she looks up at me with confusion written all over her face. 'What do you mean?'

Opening my mouth to explain I don't really have anything to say so I close it. The last thing I'm going to do is confess to a girl who's in love with someone else. It would hurt too much to be told that you're not loved back. Even though I already know, it hurts less when you're not told it.

'I'm actually so fucking pissed off right now.' A voice slams the window open which makes the both of us flinch.

Watching Brylan crack a coke can open, she tosses me one before tossing another to Katie. 'Sorry I'm late. My bitch of a coach decides hey! Let me extend their practice because I hate their performance today. Like what the fuck? If she's so upset then she can play the whole thing for us, talking about how easy it is. Suck my dick.'