I love you, hang ups and all.

TWENTY-SIX

>> GUN POV >>

New and I tried hard to stop Papi and P'Tay from joining us but they said that we can't come if they're also not coming. The issue wasn't still resolved when New and Tay had to leave after an early dinner.

"I believe that the sponsor of the location also an admin of my fanpage." Papi hugged me from behind.

"Papi, don't even try." I threatened him. "Can you please not be too possessive? I've never had a boyfriend as possessive as you. " I said before being able to filter my thoughts.

His hands fell on the sides as he tried to process what I said. I turned to him and I could not read his expression. It was as if a noi mask  that is lacking any expression. It was creepy.

"Papi, I-" I tried to take back my words.

Only to cut me off with, "It's late. You're probably tired. Let's talk about it some other time."

He quickly turned for the door.

"Papi, where are you..." I said.

Yet again he cut me off, "I'll just be up front. There's something I need to work on." He quickly said and was out the door before I could say anything.

I've been lying on the bed and had been staring at the empty space beside me. Though we were only separated by a wall, I could feel a big gap has now seeped in and separated us.

The moment I decided to talk to him, I heard the door open. I could still smell paint as it seems that he'd been painting something. I sat up and waited for him to return to the bed room. I heard some ruffling noise from the living room and the kitchen then there was complete silence. It was too deafening that its worse than shouting. It was painful. Yet, there I was sitting up and waiting for him to come to my side. Yet, he just turned off the lights and there I was sitting alone with darkness enveloping me.

I lied down and hugged my knees in complete silence and darkness. I knew I had no right but I felt hurt. A tear escaped and I wiped it off. A couple of tears escaped and still I wiped it off. No matter if wiped it, a new one would escaped. There I was crying in silence and trying to wipe away the tears. It was frustrating. I don't want to cry anymore. I hoped that when I wiped my face, those would be the last tears to fall. Oh was I wrong.

I managed though to stop myself from making any sound apart from the constant sniffling and huffs. I guess it was hard not for my sniffles to stand out as the place was completely quiet except for the noises I was making.

I was quite blinded when the night light was turned on. I was feeling weak but managed to cover myself underneath the blanket still sniffling, huffing, and trying to wipe away the tears.

I felt somehow sit behind me. One would've been repulsed with the scent of paint somehow lingering but it meant that he was there. I could feel someone touch my head. That's when I lost it. I just cried and cried out loud I did. I felt being carried to his lap and being wrapped by his arms. I still haven't come out of the blanket but I knew it was Papi.

Papi gently removed the blanket off then gently made my head rest on his chest.  I could hear his heart pounding on his chest as I felt his fingers run through my hair.

"I'm sorry, Gun." He said. "I know I crossed the line. I'm sorry."

I shook my head and wanted to tell him but he caressed my face.

"It's- It's just that... that... that..." He hesitated for a while before completing what he was trying to say, "It's just that I forgot that I also need to respeect your privacy and your wishes."

Though he said it slowly later on, it felt as if it wasn't what he was supposed to initially say.

"Please stop crying. I'm really sorry." he said. That I knew was what he was what he intended.