What Are We?

xxiv

Got my hands on the pill the very next day. I told Jin about it and why I was crying in his bathroom. We decided that we will tell them about us once we have them both in Korea which should be in a couple of months. And the members, will think about it.

I got home and the couch that I ordered was already delivered. I didn't think that we will really need it anymore since we already shared a bed. And the memory of us, our bodies entangled, warmth shared and endless kisses, gave me a sense of calm. I belong to someone and someone belongs to me. I laid down on the old couch still sitting in my living room. This is where it all started. Our first kiss. The liquid courage he took to get close to me but as soon as it spilled he was quick to take back. But as they say, you can't put liquid back no matter how much you try. It's already spilled, drenching everything in its way. And I'm glad for that.

"I'll make love to you.. like you want me to.."

How appropriate. LOL.

I checked the screen and it's Ellie probably checking if I got the pill. She sent me a text earlier to make sure I go to an OB. She's like a mom. Well my mom will probably freak out if she had known.

"Hey sis!"

"Hey! You got it?" I knew it.

"Yep and took it already. And before you say anything I spoke to him about it and agreed we should always use protection."

"Ooookay.. I wasn't gonna say anything but that's good to know." She was giggling like a teenager and I was about to melt on the spot if she had not spoken again. "So I see this is serious?"

I haven't really thought about it but I suppose it is. I think we've made it clear how we feel about each other and want to be together. We haven't clearly said we're dating now or that we're bf/gf but doesn't that go without saying since we've slept together already?

"I suppose so. We've been seeing each other for a few months now and I really feel safe with him. He's a really nice guy and funny." I stopped there. She might ask me for a name and deets and I don't think I can lie to my sister who hasn't made any remarks yet.

"What's his name?"

There it is. I dread this question. Why did I pick up the phone? Now that the pregnancy scare is out of the way I know she's going to ask about the guy.

"Uhmmm.. it's too early for me to introduce him to you don't you think."

"Just a name." She's using her 'I'm the big sister voice'. I can't believe she hasn't lost it - I wish she had at this moment cause when she does that there's no way I can lie.

"Why?" Good one. Deflect. That's not lying.

"As your sister I want to know who you're with, who you're sleeping with and potentially get you pregnant." That was a reminder of the fiasco last night.

"He's Korean." Why did I say that? In my head I was thinking she can't pronounce the name cause it's Korean. I forgot that not only is she engaged to a Korean guy she also speaks Korean fluently.

"I know that. I heard his voice last night when you didn't hang up on our phone call."

I gulped as my mind raced to recall if I called Jin by his name last night.. I mean I did many times last night, loud and lewd, but during the phone call? I didn't say bye to my sister when he came in the bathroom to console me so yeah she must have heard him.

"His voice sounded familiar." Her voice is stern and almost accusatory. "I know him don't I? Just tell me please. I just want to know you're really safe."

"Ok yes you know him. But I'm not telling you who it is!" I dropped the call. My heart was beating so fast that I flopped on the couch.

Then my heart dropped.

My sister doesn't know a lot of people here in Korea. She's only been here for visits and it's not long enough to get familiarised with voices of those she get to meet like the company staff or Yoongi oppa's other friends. She only knows 6 other men here in Korea that she spent a lot of time with. No make that 5 cause obviously Namjoon is out of the equation since he's married. She knows I had a crush on Jimin so if she thought it was him, she would be squealing thinking I nabbed my crush. So that leaves, Hoseok, Taehyung, Jungkook and of course Jin. They're voices are very distinct.

She knows.

***

Saab: She knows..😫

Jin: huh?

Saab: My sister! She knows!

Jin: you told her?

Saab: No but I know she knows! What do we do? Do I just tell her she's right?

Jin: so she hasn't told you that it's me?

Saab: She said she recognised the voice.. I dropped the call and haven't picked up her call since.

Jin: hmmm.. is that why Yoongi was calling me.

Jin: he knows!

Saab: OMG! They know! What do we do????

Jin: look it's not a bad thing. let's talk later. I'll come to your house. Be there by 7.

That's 5 more hours of waiting and simmering. My sister has stopped calling now but looks like she's recruited Yoongi oppa in her quest. What about the others? Have they tried to call them to see if they know anything? I need to do something. Right the couch. I'll assemble that.

***

I managed to put together the sofa bed and had the old couch still sitting in the living room. I'll post it online as free tomorrow I just don't want to look at my phone now and see the numerous texts and missed calls from Ellie. My god she's persistent.

It wasn't long after I showered that Jin came knocking, still waiting 7 seconds before he opened the door with chicken and beer at hand.

"New couch," scanning the room and grinned when he found the old couch pushed back against the wall on the other side of the living room.

"Yeah I got a sofa bed so you didn't have to fold yourself in half when you sleep over." I shrugged knowing full well that he won't be needing that anymore.

"Thank you, but I love that old couch. We made lots of memories there." His hand on my waist as we sank on the new couch. "We should make new ones on here." Mischief overflowing from his eyes spreading to his lips as a wide smile ripped through his face.

"Before that we need to talk about us. We're dating now right? You're my boyfriend and I'm your girlfriend." I went right into it.

"Yes that's what we're doing and that's what we are," His voice reassuring, "and that's what we'll tell them."

"How do we do it? So awkward calling my sis now after ignoring her."

He grabbed my phone and opened the camera app pulled me closer to him and took a photo of us. He started typing out a message to Ellie with the photo.

"Here, is this good to send?"showing me the photo and message.

"My boyfriend. Your fiancé's hyung. 😘"

I looked at the photo and of course he looks perfect meanwhile I look confused.

"Take another one."

And that my friends is how I gave my sister a heart attack.