What Are We?

xxv

My sister was crying when I finally picked up her call. She was so happy that it was Jin. She said she has been worrying about me and that she knows she's lacking as a big sister and that we should really start to build our relationship again. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that I started crying as well. Yoongi oppa had to break us up and spoke to Jin congratulating him for finally taking the plunge and admit his feelings for me. They weren't as dramatic as Ellie and I.

Jin sent our photo to their group chat too but to our surprise they were all expecting it already. Yoongi oppa obviously already know from my sister that's why he's been trying to call Jin to confirm and thanks to Jimin (told you he's a bit of a gossip) who hinted at every member of a potential love line with me and Jin.

It felt really good to let people know but we decided we won't be making it public. We will keep it on the down low until Yoongi oppa engagement announcement. Their fans have been supportive of Namjoon's engagement before and wedding shortly after so they are hopefully they get the same reception for their engagement too. To be honest I prefer to keep our relationship a secret but Jin doesn't want to actively hide it but just wants to make sure I don't get targeted by the tabloids etc. He's always looking out for me and I wonder how I can do the same for him.

"So when's our anniversary?" He asked as we were talking about future dates we will take.

"That's a tough one." We both giggled cause it seems like our relationship had been one fluid event that it's hard to say. I mean we skipped a few steps in the dating protocol.

"I think it should be when we first kissed."

"No, it should be when we were both sure of our feelings and both onboard. I wasn't sure I loved you at that time"

I can feel the air tighten as soon as I slipped those words. I see Jin's face shocked while I tried to retract it.

"I mean we love hanging out with each.."

"No don't try, don't dare take that back!" He cupped my face, his face the biggest smile I've seen on him. "You're not just saying that right? You mean it?"

My tummy was in knots as my heart flipped on my chest and at the same time my heart was also at ease. How his hands are on me, his eyes taking me in. Yes I do love him.

"Yes I love you. I love you more than you ever know."

"I love you too. More and more each day."

Of course we ended up in bed, we'll, sofa bed together. This time more passionate and more intimate than the first time we slept together, secure in the thought that we love each other. As we writhe, bodies in rhythm as we move in sync, complementing each other's groove, despite my heart rate picking up speed and my breathing becoming shallow and quicker, my inner self is at peace, sense of belonging overflowing. I belong to this beautiful man who's willing to protect me and keep me safe despite of who I am. Despite my immaturity, my tantrums and my insecurities. He loves me and I love him too. That's all I can ask for in this world.