What Are We?

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We need to set some ground rules. This is my house after all.

"One, no making a scene when you come over so that my neighbours freaking know every time you come over."

"Well you need to open it right away. I can't be standing there risking to be recognised. Or better yet give me a key."

"I'll open it right away."

"What if you were in the shower? Or doing something else?" Raising his eyebrows at me, "like sleeping or something."

"Then you need to tell me when you will come over.. let's make that rule number two."

"You need to come over to my place too. You don't need to let me know, You're very welcome to come visit."

"Why would I do that? Your assistant only monitors you not me."

"Don't you think she'll find it weird that my girlfriend doesn't visit me?"

"Ok fine. Rule number four, no invading of private matters. No snooping around each other's stuff." I'm thinking about him reading my manhwa.

"Fair enough."

"Number five," again my head back to the manhwa, I need to protect myself from myself, "no physical touching of any sort."

"What if you fell and you need my help? Do I just leave you there?" He asked sarcastically.

"Hahaha. You know what I mean. That's all I can think of for now. Feel free to add more."

"Nope. All good with your ground rules here at your home."

***

It's not actually bad having him over from time to time. At first it was a bit awkward for me but he seem to have changed in how he treated me. Of course he can't just ignore me, it's my apartment. He started cracking up dad jokes which I love but at first pretended to hate. But eventually I caved in and freely enjoyed it. He brought a gaming console too. We will bet on a game ranging from getting a glass of water to buying take out, which I think is unfair to me cause hey who earns more between the two of us? That's nothing to him. Which makes me try harder and be more competitive during this high stakes games that I always win. For someone who games a lot he's not very good.

I found we have a lot of things in common too like our love for food. Sometimes he will come over while I'm experimenting and he is my designated taster. He even cooked once in one of our high stakes games and it was decent.

He's become quite relaxed with me and what I once merely observed him to be like with his members, I'm now on the receiving end of that. Like the dad jokes for example, or his sweet words of encouragement or the positive energy he radiates. I really enjoy joking around with him and dare I say I've become very comfortable in his presence and I think he did as well. I learned a lot of practical things from him too about living here in Korea, how to navigate the subways to your advantage, play the younger person card and to negotiate rent. And I also learned that underneath that serious ceo in the making, there's a child like personality and underneath that sometimes mischievous little boy is a sensitive and caring human being.

We were eating take away one time and we got to the topic of Yoongi and my sister's engagement.

"I'm really happy for Yoongi that he found Ellie. They're perfect for each other. Amazing how they made it work long distance you know."

"Yeah I'm happy for my sister too. She went through a lot and I guess that led her to Yoongi oppa." I chuckled thinking will they have ever ended up together if my sister didn't go through what she went through. "I just can't help but feel like I'm losing my sister all over again now that she's getting married." I quietly added.

"Must be hard for you when she forgot about you, your family, everything."

I was taken aback how he thought about me. Usually people only think about my sister.

"We were really close you know. We were best friends. I tell her everything. Everything. And then all of a sudden she's gone. I feel like, it was like, she's there but not really. I felt abandoned. of course it's not her fault but that's what I felt. And then she left, she actually left to find herself which I also understand she had to do. She can't be tied up to a past that she don't know, that we, her family keep bringing up. I think that pushed her away but yeah I felt abandoned by my big sis at the time." I felt a lump in my throat so i stopped talking.

He was just listening to me the whole time. Didn't even take a bite of his food which is odd for him as he will not let anything from interrupting him from eating food.

He put his bowl down and grabbed me from the side pulling me in for a hug. I let myself crash into him as I stopped myself from crying.

"You can cry you know. There's nothing wrong with crying."

As if I was just waiting for permission, I started sobbing like a baby and he just cuddled me, stroking my hair as he plant small kisses on my temple.

I finally recovered and sat up wiping my face with the serviettes that came with our take away but Jin, offers his sweater paws and swipes my whole face with it, and we laughed, removing the awkwardness that I felt after crying my heart out to him.

"Why you always wearing a sweatshirt? It's summer now." I don't even always turn the ac on cause I'm saving electricity. So it's definitely not cold in here. I just wear thin clothes - I resolved to wearing T-shirt's and shorts instead of my usual tank top and short shorts since he's been coming over. Not that I don't trust Jin but just to avoid any discomfort on both sides and also not flash him.

"I don't want you checking me out, so I'm covering myself."

My jaw dropped and glared at him.

"I see the way you looked at me when I came out of the shower with just a towel around me." Raising his eyebrows multiple times at me and winking.

"Shut up." Can't really dispute that.

I'm just glad my crying didn't make it awkward for us. And I'm happy with that. I like having him here. I've never opened up with anyone like this before so it was pretty new for me.

I think I need to add rule number 6, no catching feelings.