What Are We?

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Needless to say we removed rule number 5 that day and we proceeded with our mentorship and that is he will help me be more 'experienced' so if the opportunity comes during that weekend with Jimin I'm prepared cause, as Jin pointed out I'm not myself when I'm with Jimin. I might not be as good as I did when I was making out with Jin.

We went back to making out that night, him giving me tips on how to gently but firmly suck on his tongue, and how hard to pull on his hair etc. I was freestyling and was trailing my fingers around his nipples down to his abs when I got excited and reached down his pants.

He quickly grabbed my hand and looked straight into me. "That, no. If you're not sure if you can finish the whole way through and take responsibility for it, don't even start."

I giggled at his seriousness, "ok fine."

He pushed himself off me, leaving me hanging, pulling down on my shirt to cover my raw breasts because of his undoing.

"That's enough for today." He shifted in his seat and jumped out, then jogged in place. "I need some air."

I sat up too and gathered my hair that seems to have had a mind of its own and put them all one side, exposing the whole left side of my neck. "Oh ok. You can go on the balcony, go through my bedroom."

"Nah I think I'll just go home."

I thought he just meant to stop our lesson but still stay. I wanted him here a little longer. I really enjoy his company.

He got up, put on his shirt then leaned in to kiss me. Not on my mouth but on my exposed neck, gently sucking on it, for sure leaving a hickey. "See you at work."

I wasn't sure if he was smiling cause the light cast a shadow on his face as he leaned in to me. He walked out without even looking behind before closing the door behind him.

***

Wednesday

I have 3 more days including today to prepare for this weekend but Jin hasn't gone over to my house since that night. We only had one lesson. How does he think I'll do over the weekend.

Hey Saab, don't worry you did so well with him without even any experience I'm pretty sure you'll do well with Jimin. 

But it's Jimin. And I'm not myself when I'm with him it's true!

I was arguing with myself like this when I see Jin walking towards me. I don't know but for some reason I felt so awkward, somehow I feel guilty or whatever for him leaving abruptly that night. I felt like I did something wrong I just don't know what it was.

"Saab-ssi, I heard you're going to the dessert festival in Jejudo on your leave?" He asked as if I'm not who, he heard it from.

"Ah yes I am, my sister asked if I can help her out and see if anything's good for their wedding." I just repeated what I told him that night.

"Good. How do you feel about making it an official work trip and include reviews for us as well as for your sister's wedding?"

"Oh I guess that's fine. That works."

"Great I'll have your plane ticket and hotel booked." He turned and walked away.

I excused myself from the team and discretely followed him cause I know Jimin was supposed to book mine on behalf of my sister and they will reimburse him.

"Jin! Jin-ssi!" I whisper yelled as I power walked behind him. Despite my long legs, my strides are still shorter than his. He's ignoring me so I grabbed him when I finally managed to get close to him to face me but he grabbed me back and dragged me to a supply room.

"What do you think you're doing?" He hissed.

"I need to ask the same thing! What are you doing dragging me here?"

"You grabbed me first. What if someone sees us?"

"Wouldn't be as worse as someone seeing us come out of this supply room."

Realisation quickly came over his face and I see this clearly despite the bad lighting. His face glows even in the dark. His face is winning all the time.

"What if someone comes in needing that cleaning trolley?" I continued.

He stomped his way to the door and jammed the door knob with the mop handle and came back to me at the back of the room.

"Why did you follow me?"

"Well I just wanted to tell you that you don't need to book me a flight and hotel. Jimin oppa was gonna do that."

"Did he book it yet?" He raised his eyebrows as if challenging me.

"I don't know. I haven't asked." I replied meekly as if I got caught in a lie. "I don't have his number."

He bowed his head and slouched his shoulders, "I'll ask him. If he hasn't, I'll book it under the company." His voice trailing off and hand pinching the bridge of his nose.

"Are you ok?"

"Yeah I'm fine, just stressed."

Our height allows me to rest my head on the crook of his neck and if I tiptoe a bit, he can rest his chin on the top of my head, which he did.

I grabbed his face and put it over my shoulders where it's more comfortable for both of us and stroked the hair at the back of his head. He looked so sad that I felt compelled to comfort him.

He sighed and I felt his warm breath cascade down my neck, into my breast, the heat radiating down between my legs. He started to kiss my neck, nibbling and sucking softly making me moan and whimper from both pain and pleasure. As if energised by my moans, his kisses became harder, his hands reached down and hooked my thigh up on his waist, my throbbing centre meeting his bulge. But it wasn't enough, so he hoisted me up on to one of the steel frame counters (I hope we didn't spill any chemicals when he sideswiped them off it), both my legs now wrapped around his waist. I scooted forward into him so I can rub against his bulge while he dry humped me at the same time.

We were in pure bliss, holding in our moans and grunts in case someone comes close when suddenly our worst fear came. Someone was trying to open the door.

We stopped and looked at each other, Jin putting his index finger over his mouth. He stepped towards the door and made sure the mop handle is still jammed against the door knob. The person on the other side seemed to have given up and left. We stayed there for a good two more minutes, listening for footsteps, making sure no one is around to see us step out of it.

When we got out I almost forgot how we ended up in there in the first place and only got reminded of it when we said bye to each other.

"Wait, you'll tell Jimin oppa right?"

"Right I almost forgot!"

We both laughed. That was the reason i caught up to him and not to dry hump each other. I didn't think we'll be doing that too. I just wanted to comfort him as he seemed really stressed.

"Exciting?"

"Yeah." I grinned.

Now if Jimin is anything like him I think I'm not worried anymore.

He brings out the freak in me.